Yesterday was a very trying time for me, between all the stress from the check engine light, driving WITH the check engine light until after my appointment was over, then being unable to get anyone to simply stick a code reader in so I could determine what to do.
As a result, I did my knee jerk thing and had a couple of drinks.
For someone who went years drinking Vodka every day, almost always ALL day every day, now a couple of cocktails kick my ass (10 yrs sober did that I suppose)
So last night in getting close to bed time, I went to my FB Newsfeed (almost always a mistake)
There I saw a post by a cousin, who I've never actually met, but her husband is a Dr, an ICU Pulmonologist even. Her post was praising the wisdom of the mask, and I posted a dissenting opinion, all about me and my day.
When I woke up this morning, I remembered doing that, and I groaned knowing I should NOT have done that.
The image above is from pixabay and is almost identical to the one I used in my FB post (copied MY words from the comment on HER post)
I went to her post intending on deleting my comment, but a whole thread had developed that would disappear should I delete mine, and the thread seemed to be civil and ongoing.
I left my comment, then came to MY profile and MY post, which had garnered its own thread.
In there though, my cousin had come to MY post, and ripped me a new one, calling me Narcissistic (probably true) and spiteful like her mother, my first cousin.
She said this was the reason she had distanced herself from ALL our family (she had, but had opened up to me) and with a final barb before she blocked me, she tossed out a dismal family skeleton for all the world to see.
That my Grandfather was a pedophile/rapist of is own daughters and granddaughters (true, we know it but we don't talk about it, after all he died before I was born)
With all the political strife and now corona strife, it is becoming difficult for me to see anything positive and uplifting in any social media, and I have been contemplating really distancing myself.
I may still do so.
Yep, I may just do that soon. But then what would I do with myself?
So here is what I said on FB
I'm sorry, everything I've read and understood says that I wear a mask to protect YOU from ME.
I stayed in my apartment for EIGHT MONTHS, never going ANYWHERE without a mask.
NEVER.
I only went to the grocery store.
I was FORCED to get tested by the VA, I was positive, but I WAS NOT SICK, I had NO SYMPTOMS, but suddenly, I was a pariah, I could not DO anything, I could not SEE any doctors, all because I had a positive test.
So what good was the mask?
At first I had no antibodies, Now I DO have them, and NO ONE WILL TEST ME AGAIN, to say I am clear of it.
BECAUSE I HAVE ANTIBODIES.
Ineverhad it.(apparently I did, because I have the antibodies)
Ineverwanted it. I did EVERYTHING I WAS TOLD TO DO, but I tested positive.
NOW, tell me again how the mask makes a difference? Other than to RUIN MY LIFE, to the point where I can't GO, I can't EAT, I can't get my CAR FIXED, I can't do ANYTHING NORMAL in this world because everyone is SO SCARED.
Some people get sick. Some people die. But we ALL are PUNISHED.
The flu kills people, pneumonia kills people, the COMMON COLD kills people. Those who are susceptible get sick.
I am not susceptible. I am punished.
How is this fair? HOW IS THIS REAL?
And for that, she has blocked me. She said I had hijacked her post, but nowhere did I name her or link my post with hers.
Such is the world we live in, and such is my family. We are all broken
"Stepped in it AGAIN"
signaling a possible departure
by
Jerry E Smith
©10/01/2020
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