Repeating patterns - what if I went beyond them?

I found some pictures of microscopic crystals at Pinterest that really started to inspire me. I am convinced that God is the greatest artist. We can find wonderful beauty and harmony in the microcosmos as well as in the world of stars and galaxies.

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(Image source: Pinterest, collage made with Canva.)

I looked at the pictures, then turned off the computer and gave myself an hour to create. I didn’t want to copy, just start with a form structure. Of course, the well-known mandalas came out again, from which I made a small flower garden. But not art was relevant, it was what it brought up to me. Since I’ve been dealing with Access Consciousness for a while, I saw a good opportunity to clean myself up with some new questions that moved energies within me.

Circles, flowers, petals, mandalas - it’s interesting that I can’t get rid of these basic forms. What else would be possible that I can’t even imagine right now? If I work as a humanoid, I have infinite creative power, what if I had access to this infinity?

What if I didn’t reject my own creations as entities 👻 I gave birth to? And what if I didn’t cling to them unconsciously?
My hand ✍️ moves and describes circles, petals, spirals. What if it can do much more?

Many have already asked me why I draw such abstract "things" instead of having some theme for my pictures. For example, a still life with a vase, or a landscape with windmill, or a woman sitting at a table, reading a book (Ugh 🤢 they wanted petty bourgeois genre image I hate sooo much!). Then they went on like this: "You probably can't even do that, because you have no drawing skills, because you're untalented!😠 😭"

What f@cking viewpoints have I taken from other people that I am not capable of more and I'm untalented? What if these abstract images come from a different reality 🌈 that is beyond all known forms and concepts? What if, instead of rejecting people’s negative criticisms, I accepted them as interesting points of view?