So many things to comment on here.
I'll start with the photography. If I could take shots like that, I would be delighted - they are absolutely gorgeous.
Secondly, what an stunning place to go to try to clear your head. It's really beautiful.
Finally... oh, the thinking. I look back more often than I look forward, and that is not good. It's good to reflect, for sure. Looking back at lessons you learned, whether they were pleasant or otherwise is necessary, I think. But spending too long there is not so good.
Honestly, I think we're all a little broken. What matters is having someone, like you have, to help you hold it al together. I'm glad you have that. 😊
RE: Thinking back looking forward