The sadness continues as I'm still far from home. Mixing emotions as I keep on thinking when will I can go home. It became more emotional everytime there are things makes me think of something . How I wish I'm home, how I wish to have this nice weather when I'm in my home town. Then suddenly as I watched above, I saw the beautiful sky. The moon is so pretty as of this moment. I don't know if I should be crying or I should be smiling. I don't know what's my emotions now, that's why I'll express it through a freewrite.
I remember when I was sitting outside in our home. Playing the ballad musics, enjoying the time being alone. That time I intended to be alone to enjoy thinking lot of things while watching the beautiful moon. "What if I can fly, what if a rich beautiful woman suddenly sit beside me." I was thinking so many things because I thought it's a waste not caress this moment.
There were times when me and my friends were drinking in the shore. The sea that time was so deep, the reflection of the moon lightened the sea. We were so happy having conversation as we love to stay in that place. We loved it because the moon showered us with joy. I miss it even though I'm not that young anymore.
There is no dead person, no one is in terrible situation. Why I'm feeling like mourning while watching you above me. Shouldn't be smiling now because you are really pretty now? Sorry but my emotions won't let me to do that. I can only do that if I'm home right now.
Being alone would be fine, dreaming under the moon would be fine. As long as I'm home everything will be fine. That's why if I really can't do that now. Maybe I'll just dream under the moon. I don't care anymore as long as I can dream under you. If I'll just force my eyes to close and think things to dream.
Call me when the morning has come. Don't wake me up when the world still dark. You can do anything, just don't disturb me. My dreams become more amazing. I'm almost at home, I can see the sign that it's our place. The people in our place are greeting me as I'm doing the same. I'm outside in our house, I can see my mother look's very old but force to stand to hug me. She's walking towards me while smiling. Oh mom, did I really make you sad from these past days. Don't worry mom, if how you misses me, I miss you more.
Tears suddenly falling because of happiness. But I woke up crying because it was just a dream. I knew it from the first place but I'm still feeling the pain. I'll just open my eyes now and to see clearly what surrounds me. This isn't home, it's far from home. Not a goodbye but it's a good night for now.
thank you for reading
image is mine
huawei p8
