Who are you embarrassed from? No one's reading your posts. Not to be rude but I have a hard time thinking you just didn't know any better.
There is no value being created through vote trading, you mainly extract value. You earn rewards easier and faster than everyone else does and it's not because you are putting in the effort to gain a following or creating captivating content that interests others. It's sad how votetaders don't even attempt to fake engagement because that's how easy it is for them to get away with it but at some point it has got to stop.
Hope you consider my words not as wanting you to quit but to improve, grind your way to a genuine vote support by being active and voting other people's posts you enjoy and start following and engaging with them. if you don't have the time for that then delegate to a curation project or follow a curation trail of those using their votes in a way that benefits the whole platform and your own investment while being okay with only receiving curation rewards maximized, not also the post rewards relative to your stake.
If I seemed to harsh it's because I've ran into you and your group before in the past and it seems like you quickly got back to the same habits.
RE: CCH Community Daily Curation Update- July, 14th 2022