I cried like crazy to get him, he didn't understand my love, I didn't sleep at night to get his love, I tried my best to love him, I tried to give him my life to keep him with me, but alas, he couldn't understand my love, he didn't know how to give me importance, he only knew how to use me, you know what the truth is, I never wanted anything that would cause him pain in his life, I always wanted to be good to him, but at the end of the day, he made me understand that he is better off without me, if I ever hear that he is better off without me, then I will tell him to be good always and if he ever hears that he is in a lot of trouble without me, then I will sincerely want him to come back to me.
I never curse him, I always pray to Allah that he be fine without me because I want him to be fine alone without me and in this fine time that he forgets me, but I will want him very much because I love him from my heart. Even though I know that love these days is like playing with dolls, I tried to love him in my own way. I tried to keep him in my own way. If he had given me even a little more time than the amount of love he showed me when he first came, I would have lived with him. But now there are no stories written in his diary for me. Now there is no time for me in his time. He can no longer see the love that is in me. He is very busy now. I don't understand whether it is an excuse or something else, but I believe this much that if you can love someone from your heart once, then you can give him time even in the midst of a hundred busyness.
If he tried as hard as I tried to keep me, I would have easily bowed my head and stayed with him, but he doesn't want me, he wants something else. I know that they are valuable to him, but he never wants to understand that I truly love him. The depth of love may never be measured, but yes, I have an unwavering affection for him. I will never be able to forget him by giving up this affection. Affection is a very fragile thing, it is impossible to forget someone once it comes to me. I will be forced to say it not once, but many times. I love him. I will be forced to say it not once, but many times. I want to keep him with me, but if he doesn't want to be with me, then there is nothing I can do. After saying it so many times, when I have shown my own fecklessness, he has only made me understand that he has used me and never loved me. When I have lost the right to be with him, to tell the truth.
Now it feels good to accept loneliness. I will survive in my existence I don't want anyone to come into my life and I dream of someone else I want to spend the rest of my life with this person Yes maybe he never loved me Yes maybe he never considered me as his own person I have no problem with that I always want him to live as he is whether he loves me or not. Someone was asked what to do if his ex comes back then he said there is nothing I can do I will leave him as he is because I don't want to keep him in a cage I want to let him go free If he really loves me then he will come back to me again If he really thinks of me then he will think of me again and if he doesn't really like me then he will never come back to me again.
I may not have had time to talk to someone unnecessarily, but yes, I wanted to keep him as my own. The faster time passes from our lives. We are moving towards death, but even after that, there is no peace in our minds. There is no fear that we will have to leave this world, we always think about how to fool another person, we always think about how we can be good by fooling a person. The truth is that you can never be good by fooling someone. If you want to be good, then always stay on the path of truth, no matter what happens? Never try to walk on another path from your own path. Allah Almighty has always said, you always follow the path of the Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him), I will definitely accompany you.
So it seems to me that the faster time passes from our lives! The more we move towards the grave, the younger many people have left the world! Therefore, there is no guarantee that you and I will live until tomorrow morning, so always move forward in the path of Allah and consider your time as ending here. Alhamdulillah, I am very happy to see a new morning, but today I will do a little different work. For which I had prepared since morning, first I had to work. Planting seedlings The previous day I brought some seedlings from the market, in fact, the water around is drying up and if you plant seedlings, you will get a fairly good yield, this is the purpose.
The purpose is not to get a good harvest but to eat food containing formalin. I have not always tried to plant and then start from there and enjoy the fruits because it seems to me that formalin is present in every thing in the market. Similarly, excessive fertilizers are used and due to which various types of diseases get a lot of opportunities to settle in our body. So always try to eat food prepared by yourself and you will see that life will be a little different. Your body's immunity will increase. Anyway, I planted my own trees properly in the morning. To be honest, it feels good to plant trees. And it seems that we are definitely saving something new to take in oxygen in a new way.
The morning weather was very beautiful, the sun was shining all around. Another good thing was working, winter has arrived, the morning weather tells us that winter has arrived. And during this winter, we see various types of vegetables in our country, one of which is beans, red cabbage, tomatoes, coriander leaves, radish leaves and many more. So I also tried to plant some vegetables in this way, so that at least the shortage of vegetables in our family will be filled to some extent. And with this aim, I tried to complete my work, although it took a lot of time, I think I did a pretty good job.
Whether he loves me or not, I love him from my heart, I want to have him as mine, I want to have him as mine, I know he will never catch up with me like me, but yes, I will keep trying, I don't know exactly when he will catch up with me, I just believe that if I want him from my heart, one day he will definitely come back to me, but will he come back? There is no guarantee because nowadays people are only selfish, their interests end, their relationship with you ends there, so it is very important to live your own life, even if it is to organize your life, who said that you will not be given, of course you will get married, of course you can, but for that you have to try a little.
Along with that, there was the task of cooking rice, since I had cooked it the day before. The next day, the rice had to be taken to the roof, so in the morning, after planting trees, I completed the task of raising rice on my roof. Then the rice drying process began. In fact, it feels good to organize household chores and it feels even better if you can complete the tasks in a short time. Which really makes me feel much more happy. Anyway, I have shared my activities today with you, I hope you will like it. May everyone be well, God willing.