It is as if the world is conspiring to ruin my life and the fragile progress I've made in the last few years RE mental health.
There was NO "hard fall"
This happened three times, first a couple of months ago while I was outside working (no fall, I did not drop my phone) The last two times I was IN MY BED ASLEEP... my watch woke me up wanting to know if I wanted it to contact emergency services.
For GOD'S SAKE. Samsung support was a useless as tits on a boar hog.
Trying to go thru my brothers things has frozen all other aspects of my life
I already knew about this, but finding the document just brought it all home again.
After he could no longer do the work at the hunt club, he had moved into a motel and was wasting away what money he'd accrued.
The folks he lived with for the last 27 yrs were connected with him and so began his rental relationship with them, where (thank god) he found a family.
Apparently spelling was not a requirement in the Dept of Commerce in 1936, they completely misspelled our mothers first and last name.
So my days have been filled with puttering at sorting my brothers stuff, fighting an infestation of Squash bugs in my garden,
(I've pulled out all the squash now, ↑butter nut↑ and yellow squash, and I'm struggling to keep the cucumbers alive and producing)
collecting and giving away the things I've grown
(I'm still eating the tomatoes and cucumbers, but there are far more than I can eat alone. I'd planned on putting up/freezing the tomatoes, I just can't seem to get past this damned depression and move forward with my life again)
So I still have about 3 weeks to wait for the paperwork to get thru for me to clear up all the loose ends with my brothers life, dispose of his ashes, get some sort of monument or marker for him (since I did find his military service documents, I reached out to see about getting him a proper brass military marker, but again that takes an enormous amount of time, the government moves at glacial speeds)
So I am still on hold, still getting nowhere in my own life, sadly.
Update over for now.
