This is beautiful. and you are by no means alone in this. and yes, the cosmos is literally bombarding us with energies and light (=information) that is not only pushing a physiological evolution in us but also a strong spiritual sense. my personal journey started about 5 years ago when I moved to live on a farm, surrounded with nature in Portugal. my relationship to everything is in constant change. gratefulness has become deeply engrave in me. I practice both meditation and observation, sometimes with the help of mushrooms and my connection gets ever deeper as time passes.
you can read a little in this recent post:
@bigorna1/howling-at-the-moon

what is your native language if I may ask ?

thank you for sharing !