This weekend had been a mental challenge for me. When you are prone to depression or anxiety little things can throw you off.

And most of the times when you least expect it. You can be the toughest, strongest person, but a little something can throw you out of balance before you even notice.

Suddenly you find yourself in this mental loop again. The whole world becomes a dark place and just the presence of other people is making you uncomfortable.

You think and think and think and while thinking you start to annoy yourself. Being annoyed by yourself makes you feel even worse and looking in the mirror you see a person you feel pity for. You see a person you wanna slap in the face for its weakness. Then you start thinking again because this person is you.

While I have learned to detect when I'm going down the rabbit hole earlier than in the past, I can't avoid falling into the trap from time to time.

It's a certain form of stress that is triggering me to go into my personal dark alley. Good thing is I don't beat myself up as much anymore. I slowly learn to deal with it somehow and today I decided to go to a place where I won't meet people.

I drove to a part of a forest that is not crowded on a Sunday. There are some spots that I feel connected to and where I feel comfortable to be at.

It is just me and my companion Joy there. Me, Joy and nature.
Birds singing, trees that rustle in the wind telling their stories, a salamander once in a while, insects and almost every time I see deer.

There is this little magical water hole. A small spring is feeding it and though it is hard to describe why, from the moment I found it 6 month ago in the wintertime I felt drawn to it. A lot of people wouldn't even notice it, but from the first time it felt magical to me.

I walked around that area with Joy to ease my mind. It helped, as I was alone and just focusing on the nature around me. I needed to gain a different perspective on the things that had me thrown off this weekend. I needed to escape my thinking loop.

Finding mechanisms to escape ones own thoughts is not easy but I get better at it.

I spent an hour in this area and walked back off roads. When I reached the area of my little magic water hole I heard a fawn cry out for its mom. I recognize the sounds of nature and knew there was deer around and pretty close.

I grabbed my phone to take some pictures. At home I wanted to zoom in to see if maybe I had captured the little deer family. But what I discovered instead made me wonder. My magic place is behind that log you are going to see in the pictures.

I just want to mention that I have not edited the pics besides cropping them so you can see what I captured.

What I saw wasn't visible when I took the pictures with my phone, just at home I recognized what I first thought is a backlight caused by solar radiation.

Even if it would be a backlight it appeared different in the first place and while I was zooming in to find the deer it became even stranger.

I know how our brains work, and some might argue it's a technical issue, but you can tell me what you see if you like.

Realizing what I captured, or what I believe I captured made me forget all my sorrows. I wanna share the pictures with you in this little open minded corner of the Hive because I know there are people here that will see what I see.

It is magical, just as my little water hole.

If you believe in spirituality you see what I see and I was humbled.

You may laugh at me for believing it but I see a manifestation. The pictures were taken in quick succession and nothing of the sort was visible on the screen when I took them.

I am grateful for that to happen and it underlines the feeling I have with this little place, my magical water hole.

My weekend took a turn to the better and it leaves me with the feeling that all the materialistic crap we have to deal with in our modern ego driven society is not the way to live by.

It leaves me with the wish to discover the true truth.

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