_{Me and my twin sister, same but different}

Some of the experiences made me strong, others broke me, so the topic of mental health issues in early life stages is familiar with me and something I could write about in this community. It sticks with you throughout your life.

Also the experiences of losing your identity with the break down of your country. To this day some German politicians refer to us as migrants and people are filled with prejudices.

I went on a long journey and through deep valleys trying to figure out why I am how I am. Reading all kinds of literature about psychology, physiology, biology until I made my way to spirituality, philosophy and astrology.

I believe in the greater things out there, that there is more than we think or most believe. I believe in the power of nature, in the wisdom of the ancient, in the traditions of old civilizations and the truth of the universe.

I believe in science and rationality but also in the deeper abilities of us. Gut feeling, the connection with the universe and the ways we can get back to old knowledge that has been buried under the modern ego.

I'll take you on my journey through a course by Wim Hof, "The Iceman", that I joined a while ago and wanted to repeat for quite a while now.

There are times in life where we lose track of the things we want to achieve, being thrown out of balance by certain circumstances.

As with a lot of people around the globe, Covid19 was a big game changer.

A good one personally, because I made my way out of a toxic work environment at a bar I was working in lately, but it also has its downsides.

_{Me in one of the bars I worked at. It was carnival season in Germany in case you wonder about the guests lol.}

I was working as a bartender most of the times in my life. It was an easy job to hop on and off in between my travels and life stations, and my way to make a living.

You learn a lot about humans working behind the bar. You see the best and the worst of society.

Also in my 'meant to be' profession in the security business.

Being a strong person when needed, and one that likes to protect others from harm, this job just fell in front of me. Like most of the things in my life. I'm not a planner.

Being in my final exams in high school I got my first job in this business and it should follow me through my life.

_{At the set of "Enemy At The Gates" with Jude Law and Ralph Fiennes in 2000. Me and my K9.}

After high school and after pursuing an unnecessary vocational training in the food industry I worked as a Security Officer for USAREUR HQ and NATO, Heidelberg.

During that time I got to know my now ex husband and we moved around with the army. "Home is where the Army sends you!" was the motto, and I didn't mind it. My world was filled with training and enjoying life in the States.

_{Training at Pikes Peak Combat Sports. My family in Colorado Springs.}

What really mattered was the trauma 3 deployments to Iraq and Afghanistan had left us with and which led finally to our divorce.

PTSD is another topic I can contribute too.

After coming back to Germany I met an old friend again, who became my partner in crime to this day.

He was the one introducing me to the world of Personal Protection for Hollywoods famous. It was his profession for 15+ years.

_{Me in action. The paparazzi called me "The German shepherd" and I could show that you don't have to be a big guy to do this job.}

I loved this job because it was everything I'm passionate about. The best was working with people from all over the world and building teams with strangers in order to fulfill the best protection possible. It is the 'simple' people that made this job a dream job, the protectees were a nice addition. It is a job shaped by personal sacrifice, ungratefulness by the protectees and a shitty pay...but yet a dream job.

With Trumps executive orders a lot changed for the worse for us and Corona was the final death for our profession.

We not only lost a business that was insecure anyway, but also my job as a bartender. Since then we have been living on 100€/week for the both of us, as all our savings were used up by medical bills and other expenses. I am the only one that could apply for social care in Germany and finding a job now is impossible.

It is getting harder each week and that brings back fears and mental challenges. José is also gone since 2 months to take care of his mum, who injured herself badly at the age of 87.

_{Me and Joy at Dantes Benaco, a connection to Dante Alighieri and Umberto Eco we also have.}

My dog gives me support, all my animals have done so and so is being outside. My pets saved me from going down bad lanes in life, between the good times there were quite some bad ones.

So has dealing with alternative healing methods and natural medicine. Nature provides us with everything we need and discovering old traditions and rituals brings us back to our natural state.

I just received my salt lamps yesterday. I wanna get more anions in the air and salt lamps are a natural way to do so. Yet another topic I can share my experience with.

After all I'm an autodidact and I have an open mind towards a lot of topics. I can share so many things and being encouraged by people within Hive I might come out of my shell more and more. For the astrologists among us, I'm a Cancer, ascendant Cancer and for the numerologists, I'm a 29/11/2. That might explain a little bit.

I hope you now know a little bit more of me and where I am coming from. I hope to delight the Hive with interesting content, in most of my posts you will find informations and facts about anything, but always validated as good as possible. So clicking and reading might give you new insights period.

Special thanks to Hive account@galenkp and Hive account@brittandjosie for encouraging me on opening up.

And of course to everyone who has been supportive so far. Hive account@ksteem, Hive account@zo3d, Hive account@antoniojoseha, Hive account@bdmillergallery, Hive account@papilloncharity, Hive account@chocolatescorpi, Hive account@ewkaw and Hive account@qwerrie and not to forget Hive account@offgridlife who named me the best non-canadian so far lol. And everyone I haven't mentioned yet.

I hope to be welcomed to the Natural Medicine Community and to get the one or the other post up that will be of interest.

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