Your dad is still alive? You are not alone in feeling as you do. His love is not unconditional, and he expects his wife and children to follow his blueprint for life. Too many of us know that m.o. I'm sorry you grew up with it but applaud you for Divergence from that path he laid out for you.

I'm not missing a good relationship with you because I've never had one. It has always been hard, harsh, hurtful. What you are doing now? Cutting me off? I've been patiently waiting my turn. I knew this day would come because this is your modus operandi: those who do not fall in line are cast off.
I'm a castaway. It is very lonely. Abusive patterns live on well after the physical violence stops.

Maybe we daughters never stop yearning for Daddy's unconditional love. May we find true love where we can, with whoever we can, never mind the DNA connections. Go back far enough, we are all brothers and sisters....

Thank you for sharing this.