I came home at night, the day was over, I looked at the bed with the desire to rest and my body was screaming from the pains, in my head any number of thoughts were wandering freely. I did not understand the situation, although the days flowed naturally and without obstacles, when the end came, my soul felt fatigued. The headaches were not long in coming, they woke up with me and worked hesitantly to my own beat, every now and then announcing 'hey, we're still here' I had already named them and created a personality for the constant company they kept me. The next morning I walked with my knees cramped and my bones occasionally spoke to me, as if I were decaying in life. I arrive at work replying with 'I'm fine' convinced that I was, nothing extraordinary was really happening, I ate, drank water, slept and avoided arguing as much as possible so as not to stress myself out, however the nights were announcing that something was indeed going on.
Weeks began to pass and tiredness was marked on my face like a mask, as I walked home I began to choke, I feared I was really sick and ran to the pharmacy in search of.... of what? I didn't even know what was wrong. So that night I cried, I cried a lot, I cried so loudly that I can deduce that the neighbors heard: what's wrong? I wondered, with all this situation I feared the worst and I thought I would prepare myself to face medically whatever I had to face. I remember dreaming that I was running through an immense field, my body was moving at such a speed that the wind was blowing with it, I was moving every part of it with a wonderful agility, nature was there enveloping the space and I was discovering it with great strides.
So I woke up, tired but aware of everything that was going on. It was Tuesday, I was alone and the day was just beginning, the bones continued to creak but I changed my clothes and began to move my body within my own space, for every workout the worst groan escaped me, but one message kept repeating in my head ''don't stop''. When I finished, in the most curious way my body stopped feeling pain, I felt as if I had consumed a whole glass of coffee and energy was pouring out of my pores. I immediately went out to buy fruit and when I arrived I ate until I felt I had my fill. I took a cold shower (extremely cold I would say) and when I got back to the room, I felt my soul thanking me.
I continued for the next few days, training until I felt I reached my limit, I managed to do it for an hour a day, water and fruit became more constant, the smile on my face was now indelible. I began to listen to my body's needs at the time, some days it wanted to jump rope for an hour, some days it wanted to test its strength, and some days it wanted to run around the world. It asked for fruits, grains, cereals and lots of water.
One morning it asked me to start praying from silence, the need to stop the stimuli and the noise suddenly appeared, for every second in silence I felt how it recharged the soul, it was then that I understood that daily life no longer hurt.
Our body constantly talks to us, asks us for things and expresses its discomforts, all related to the absence of something that is essential for our spirit, it will not only ask us for external and material stimuli, it will also ask us for silence, meditation, space and even boredom. When we give pause to the automation that we have implanted in our life and we begin to live it, we immediately listen to our body intuitively, we work with it, we connect to it and it is then when the crunchy knees ends.
Please pause for now and listen. What is your body asking you to do today?
