It's been a rather long break again...(this is not how I intend to start my posts, I realize I have been writing this a couple of times already). Anyway, I feel it's important to listen to my body and to my Higher Self, what I actually feel like doing. Because I'm so used to just push through, not really being aware of how it affects my mental state or health. And I'm sorry to say but being on Hive hasn't been at the top of my list. I always miss interacting with you wonderful people here though and now when I'm back in Stockholm again and also starting to get back into my routines, I'll hopefully hang around here more π
All in all, it's been a good summer. I'm writing as the summer is already over but it kind of feels that way since I have started working again and it isn't that warm and sunny outside anymore (can still come back though). I won't complain about the weather, it's been amazing throughout the summer and I'm so happy to have been swimming in the lakes here in Sweden a lot.
About a month ago I went to a primal tantric retreat for women and that was honestly quite challenging. Challenging but good. I have definitely grown from the experience. For me, it's always a challenge to be part of a group, I tend to withdraw quite a lot and I also never really feel like part of the group. (I'm well aware this is all on me). I'm very much a one-on-one person. But I also long for more close friends and I felt I might meet some nice, like-minded people there.
This retreat was very intense. With workshops from 9 am to around 10 pm every day. We went deep. We got wild. We cried. We screamed. We got naked. We danced a lot. This was full expression full on. And we hugged a lot. Everyone was really there for each other. We did this all together. We witnessed each other. Supported each other. It was truly beautiful and very moving. We were all so vulnerable together. I felt deeply connected to everyone.
I guess the experience also got so strong since I haven't really attended workshops like these since Covid happened. And it was so nice not to think of Covid for 10 full days. We were in a bubble but it was a nice bubble.
Most of what came up for me during the retreat wasn't really new to me but I realized how much I still hold myself back. And how much I still dislike some parts of myself. Parts I actually wasn't that aware of, despite all the work I have done on myself.
But since awareness, or clarity, is the first step to transformation I now know what I can work more on. I know there are still things that hold me back. Not completely but they sure feel like an extra weight to carry, a weight I don't need. And I feel done with it. It doesn't serve any purpose anymore. I don't need that protection anymore. I'm ready to live my purpose and step out in the world fully. And I won't let my mind make up excuses anymore.
This summer I have also started to share my work as a self-love, pleasure, and dating coach on social media. Actually, I have spent quite some time on this and even though I have been outside of my comfort zone sometimes I really enjoy it. I still have a long way to go but I feel it's a good start and it also starts to sink more into my system and identity. This is the work I want to do. I know my work is powerful and can transform lives and now I just need to find a way to communicate this in a compelling way. And I'll get there.
I have also started with a new morning routine. I listen to a guided gratefulness meditation for about 20 minutes and then I speak affirmations out loud. I have only been doing this for a week but it has already shifted a lot of things for me. How I feel about starting the day and what I feel is worth focusing on.
And yes. I still have 2 coach trainings left to finish before Christmas. One of them is as a Jade Egg coach and I 'need' to practice a lot with this egg. I'm looking forward because it's one of my favorite practices and I really feel it'll be so powerful to dive into these practices now. Considering where I'm at and where I want to go. And I can't wait to share these powerful practices with clients.
Thanks for reading π
Love and blessings to you all π
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