How have you been growing and healing recently?

2 hours ago, I suddenly realized I was overflowing with energy that I hadn’t seen in a few weeks. It could have been the Indonesian food I just had, or the crypto market, or the fact that an American friend (I don’t have many) who wants to jam is staying in my neighborhood for an extra three weeks before he continues traveling in Asia.

I woke up tired this morning, mostly because my back problems started up again yesterday. But as is usually the case my mood can have a huge impact on my body. Stretch doesn’t always work, and finding things to be happy about doesn’t always work but the two together tend to get me back up at running as usual.

I got home from lunch and spent 30 minutes on a 3speak video. I was so excited to be on camera again, and I’ll tell you why when I get around to re-recording because after I finished opening up my voice and then recording for 15 minutes, I got the error message “can only upload mp4 files”. The file did not save.

I am going on for some massage therapy before work so I don’t have time to re-record today so I wanted to ask a question that allows me to share this excitement in feeling right now without covering the exact same topics I want to share in a video.

I see myself improving in so many ways

I no longer dwell on negative thoughts. Sometimes they catch me for an hour or two and I deliberate conspiracy theories or speculate about the future of politics. I debate with my steem buddy Hive account@macchiata about government and power. Then I realize “Woah, 5 senses...beautiful! Life is full of surprises! I can only do what I can do!” And I SNap out of it. Maybe it was the virus and my ability to not let it get to me that put me in such an energetic mood :-)

I am learning to make compromises that are not really compromises. I spend time and energy looking for students because I no longer feel like a victim who is destined to fail. I go through annoying paperwork because I realize it is just training me to be more accepting of what comes and that it will pass as quickly as it came. I don’t spend too much time complaining anymore. I can focus a little better. I am showing myself more than I used to, and feel I have nothing to hide, even though I still insist that we should have the right to stay out of the camera lens.

Hive account@vincentnijman and I have been doing a podcast. I am going to be making more videos. I am continuing to write. I got back into practicing guitar to improve my technique. I am making enough money to survive and slowly save. I’m almost a dolphin here. Things are all going really nice and well and it’s because I keep doing my best to improve and heal. What about you?

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