Powerful post. Thank you for sharing. I can relate, family is hard, especially when you feel, and they let you know that who you are is not good enough or some shit. I grew up in this kind of family. As you said, self-love, and live how you believe that is right for you, is the most important thing. For me, as a mother myself now, I am trying to heal and change by giving my son and the family I am building unconditional love. No matter what he chooses, I don't have to agree, but to accept him as he is, and love, always love. I whis you to find your true loving family.