Sunny times in Poland and June’s PUD

Saturday, 1st of June 2024 [118]

They say time flies when you’re having fun.

That’s true, but it also flies when you feel like a flat tyre and do anything to escape life. 4 months went by like this for me and its time I’ll never get back. Although that also had its value. Sometimes we need to crash down really hard to break down the stubborn pieces of cement still covering our golden buddha inside.

On the contrary, time didn’t really fly by since I bounced back. It goes slowly. It’s so very conscious. Every step placed carefully, wondering if this will last. So far it does and I’m juicing every minute of it to the max. To squeeze just as much happiness out of it as I possibly can.

I said mountains really did the trick for me, but I also remember the sunny day in Poland, a few days before the hike. The trip to Poland was planned in a rush and I didn’t expect to get any extra appointments arranged at a short notice, so I was over the moon when my favourite nail technician came back to me with a date that fitted right into my schedule.

I decided I need some crazy, spring colours in my life, so I opted for neon yellows and green.

‘One must really like this kind of colours to wear them’ said Ms Monika when she finished. ‘I definitely wouldn’t do this for myself’ 😂

These are the colours of spring though and I remember that spring used to be my favourite time of the year. Until it was not. This year I barely noticed the arrival of spring. The spring bulbs showed up in my garden without a fail like every year and through the thick brain fog I remember taking a few pictures, although I never posted them here or anywhere else. It was more of an autopilot to be honest.

You naturally gravitate to the things you love said Laleh on Thursday night when we were coming back from salsa. Even in your darkest time you still got ready and went to the salsa parties with me. You dragged yourself out of bed and came to the park to walk and talk with me. You were crying your eyes out, but you always wiped them out to take a picture of a flower during out walks. You had a deep need to get better and that is what brought you to this happy place right now she added.

True dat! Having friends like Laleh who walked with me every step of this dark journey is invaluable. If I was a Jennie in the bottle I’d instantly grant her every wish and gave her access to a never ending source of happiness. She’s such a bright gem and an amazing friend for many.

Right now she’s the one going through a bit of rough patch. Maybe not as deeply as I was, but quite debilitating nonetheless and now I want to be there with her every step of this journey. It’s tough, but also necessary to reach the next levels of existence. More conscious, more joyfull. I’m sure she’ll get there in no time, cause like me, she naturally gravitates to the things that make her happy. Despite how shitty and foggy she feels when she wakes up.

The day I had my nails done was so beautiful and shiny. I smiled seeing them and I smiled to the sun when I came out of the salon. It was like my eyes had opened to colours again and I suddenly saw many colourful flowers around me.

I was stopping and squatting multiple times to capture them. Little breeze of speing wind was pleasant and felt like it’s bringing a change. ‘Winds of change’ is a thought I had many times this year when I felt that gentle blow on my cheek or in my hair. It took a while for those winds to blow away the old pieces of me that needed to be shed like an old skin, but now that enough of them are gone I feel like I breath freely again. There will always be some bits and pieces to smooth out, but now I’m looking forward to doing so, rather than dreading it.

Cute little dogs were shouting at me a little when I bent yet another time to capture more flowers. I got to close to their boundries I guess. I smiled and captured them too. Little dogs seem to have a tendency to yap much more than the big ones. Just like little me 😂

The much bigger one above that I met another day didn’t say a word! He just looked at me with those beautiful eyes and probably dreaming of nice cuddles. I greeted him with a smile too, but didn’t dare to put my hands through the gate.

Anyway! All this blabbing and what I really wanted to do today was write the first Power Up Day post in a long time! Hence why the mention of time flying which then turned into the whole other tangent at all. It flew into something cute anyway, so I’m complaining.

Complaining is something I decided to do much less off in this past year anyway. Every now and again it’s ok and maybe even needed. Sometimes it brings the well needed change. Most of the time though it just spoils the atmosphere and who wants that? 🤷🏻‍♀️

Especially on a sunny, yellowy day!

Today it’s half sunny, half windy. A perfect day for chilling in the garden and a perfect day to catch up on chores that haven’t been done in weeks as I’m in and out of the house most days. Weirdly enough despite getting much less sleep than my usual 7-9 hours ever since I came back from Poland, I still get up rather early even on my off days. 8 o’clock is warly for me in comparisons to those dark days when I stayed in bed till midday, cause I just wanted to avoid life.

‘It’s surprising how much I get done when I don’t feel like a flat tyre all the time’ - I said to Laleh today.

All this energy that was blocked for so long is finally flowing again and I can’t tell you enough how much I’m enjoying it. Writing feels like fun again, although my days have become so utterly busy recently that I’m not sure I can do much more than a post a week, but at least it will be a good one, I promise 😍

So yeah, back to PUD! First one in many months! If I remember well I did still power up most of those silent months, just never got energy to write about it. Today I’m joining the buzzing Hive community in celebrating the power of growth, the power of saving and the excitement of doing it together with this amazing community on hive.