I have been feeling grateful the last few days, grateful for all that I have, but every now and again the sadness of your passing creeps in. It will be 2 years ago tomorrow, and that ache I still carry with me.
Every time I see a butterfly or a bird, that flies close by, I think of you. Of your spirit, now totally free. There is nothing holding you back now!
It does bring me some comfort knowing this, but of course the pain of losing you remains, it will always remain, because it is tied in, with the love I feel for you. Grief, being an expression of love!
I am reminded, how fragile life is. That even though, we like to make plans, to have visions and goals to work towards, we never really know, what awaits us around the next corner. We never know, how much time we have left on this wonderful earth.
And so, we need to make the most of it, to live our lives to the fullest and not get tied up in petty disagreements, both with ourselves and others.
To not give into the fear, that has been created. A fear, that has us afraid to live our lives. I think back to 2 years ago, how different the world was then. How easily we could embrace others, express ourselves more openly in public places. Where we could see one anothers faces.
Instead, now I see the fear in people's eyes, fear of each another.
How things have changed in these last 2 years. How we have become so distant, physically and emotionally from one another. How friends and family have been segregated and divided. How this, was the thing to force a even greater divide, we all have our own opinions about things and most times we could just agree to disagree.
But this, this is something altogether different, it has worked it's way into the minds of so many. So many who refuse to ask questions, following the media and government blindly.Trusting both, as though they have never deceived us and that trust has caused such a huge divide.
I look to the world, a world that is now in two parts. One where we finally take a leap and take full responsibility for our lives or where we continue to be blinded by the words of those who take our power.
We must decide how we move forward from here!
I keep hearing, that things will pass, that it will return to normal, but there is no going back. Many conversations with people, who do not wish to fully face the truth, convincing themselves that there is an end in sight.
But that end is only there, if we take it, if we take action! This is the beginning of a new way and we have to decide which path we follow. And with that choice, is a wonderful opportunity, a wonderful opportunity to create change.
Let us not get lost in other people's stories, let us create our own. We do not have to follow the masses, we do not have to live in fear!
Everyday we get to have on this earth, is a blessing, it is a gift. I am reminded of that every time I think of my sister. Life really is too short!
