Hello Hive
My name is Blessie, I am 21 years old from the Philippines. I would like to share my experience and how was started having this disorder.
I started having it because I was born over five days and my brain lacked oxygen and I was about to die. So I stay in the hospital for more weeks to monitor my condition.
Moving forward, when I was 2 years old until 5 years old I still couldn't speak straight and I didn't know how to pronounce Nanay and Tatay means Mom and Dad. The only words I know are "Heidi" my neighbor's name and "Uwe" which means go home. And my cope mechanism to express myself is hurting myself like headbanging because I didn't speak like a normal kid.
When I started to go to school at first they want me to be their friends until they see I am different to them they teased me like “Luka-Luka”, “Baliw”, “May Sayad”, “Abnormal” and many more hurtful words. I experience this until Junior High School and that’s why I was scared to socialize with others. Last November 2017 because I experience bullying I attempt to commit suicide using a cutter in my pulse. This is my only buddy when I fail is hurting myself because I don't want to bother anyone Because I don't want to be a burden for them.
Last January 2018 my family decided to bring me to a psychiatrist because they are scared of what happened to me. So I diagnosed that I have Bipolar Disorder 2. That is why my mood is unstable because I was born with the lack of oxygen plus trauma that I experience. When my classmate knew that I have Bipolar Disorder they stop bullying me.
Moving forward in 2021 sometimes I experience episodes but I can control them because I divert my attention to music, arts, and learn to socialize with others.
This Is Me Now
So what is next that I post a blog about mental health?
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