The first thing I noticed was my loss in wanting to do anything. And when I mean do anything I am talking about playing blockchain games which is a huge passion of mine. Or just not wanting to go the the store even though I needed groceries. I was also finding my self always making excuses to tell my friends why I couldn't go join them when they invited me out. And at my worse getting up to take my anit-rejection drugs that I must take every day due to have a dual organ transplant. So I found that setting just three small goals even it one might be perhaps just getting up and brushing my teeth. Having those three small goals helped me a lot. Along with therapy of course.
The second was me either sleeping far too much or not being able to get restful sleep. No to be fair for many years at most of my jobs I worked the late shift. So I always figured I was a night owl and that is just what my body preferred. But then a number of times I started to see the correlation of when I was not doing the best mentally and my sleep pattern. I tried around three different sleeping aides but none of them helped me at all. They either kept me awake, or had me having nightmares. So I went the route of more natural sleep aides and they have helped. As with all of these sings I will mention is that therapy has also helped in all of these situations.
The third sign was my eating habits had been all over the place. I would either eat only once a day or just stuff myself. Normally I only eat twice a day so after I took a long look at what I was doing and noticed a certain pattern with my eating. So now as I have gotten better I am back to a more normal eating schedule. Having the proper nourishment has definitely helped me. And I certainly think that perhaps diet maybe often over looked when it comes to mental health. I know everyone's experiences will differ greatly, and I am just sharing what is working best for me.
My fourth sign was definitely poor self image. I was always thinking I was never good enough for a certain person. That they would think I am not on their level so why should I even try. This struck me as odd because in high school I was extremely confident and outgoing. The mind plays tricks with you and you start to doubt if you are more of a hindrance then a help or positive force in the world.
And the last sign for me was my mood swings. I would be up and happy and the world was perfect. Then an hour late I would be down and everything in life was a choir. The thing I disliked most was the anger and being short with those I loved. I am normally an extremely caring and loving person who would do anything for friends, family, and loved ones. It took a lot of work and therapy to get that under control. That might be the one I am happiest about fixing so to speak. As I have returned more towards my old self.
If you have managed to stay around this long I would like to thank your for your support. Please feel free to comment below and perhaps share your story. Lets support each other and build each other up. I hope you are having an amazing day or night wherever you may be.