Gratitude is something which is quite a lot of times confused with give and take as I have experienced in my life. I don't know if it was just my surrounding people that felt that way but whenever I have done something for someone without any ulterior motives I have always received the reply
I will pay you back
That is not necessarily a bad reply and I know the people saying that to me have only good things for me but I feel Gratitude quite different and I don't know if you guys will agree with me or not but I do have some experiences to share from my life some of which will be me feeling Gratitude and some me Showing Gratitude.
Let's start with my Mom and Dad especially my Mom with whom I have had a Love-Hate relationship for quite a while. It's not like I Hate my Mom completely but there are some things that my Mom knows I don't like but still forces me to do and sometimes that leads to some arguments. When I was around 10 years old I used to stay with my Mom alone as my Dad had to stay out of Town for his work and trust me I was hit by a lot of things which included Ruler, Eraser, Stick and many more. Now I know that was all my fault and my Mom was making sure I focused on my Studies but one day she Hit me with a Sandal and for some reason that affected my psyche a lot. I don't know if that was Pride or something else but at that age, I was hell-bent on leaving the house at 9 PM so that I don't have to stay there. Things escalated so bad that my Dad had to rush back home from work and calm me down.
The reason I am telling this is that I am Grateful for those Ass whooping as it turned me into the Man I am now. It has been around 2 years that I got my job and I am really proud to say that I have already fulfilled some of my Mom's Dreams. My Mom has always loved Diamonds and even though she could have bought one she didn't as it was not a Necessity and I have always known this and the day when I was able to accumulate the amount necessary for a Diamond I gifted her one and I know she was Grateful beyond any words as Tears Rolled down her Eyes. My Mom could have bought 2 more Diamonds with her Bank Balance but the Joy of getting it from her Child was something Priceless.
The Second Story would be from when I was in college. Most of the Professors in my College were quite good to me except one but there was One Teacher that went way beyond their Call of Duty to help me. His name was Dibyendu Sir and when my grades were bad in the 2nd year of College he asked me to move into his brand new house so that he could guide me personally and make me learn things. I cannot explain the amount of Respect I had for him as a Teacher and the Gratitude I felt towards him. He believed in me at a Time when I didn't even believe in myself and he has a huge hand as to where I stand in Society.
But sadly I have never been able to express how grateful I am to my Teacher as once I got my First Job Covid-19 started and I feel like these sort of things should be expressed personally and not on Call. So I am really looking forward to meeting him once this whole Pandemic Situation is over and have a good heartfelt talk.
So these are my Gratitude Showing and Receiving Experiences at least the Top 2 and there is also the fact that I am grateful to be Born in this world which is just obvious for almost everyone.