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A wonderful morning to everyone in the ecoTrain community. I saw 
The question of the week says:
"What habits or addictions, both good and bad, have you developed and which you would like to get rid of?"
Bad Habits I'll Like To Get Rid Of
There are a few but very serious bad habits of mine I'll like to write about here. Hopefully I could get some advice from others on how to get rid of them and I could equally find out if there's anyone who possesses these habits too.
The Chickening Out Habit
I've developed this habit of agreeing to go out with a person and when the day or time is close by, I just don't feel like going out anymore and I chicken out. I get nervous and worried that things won't go well. I think of a thousand and one excuses to go back on the agreement. If I can't find one, I create one. I can decide to deliberately go to my aunt's place and offer to wash all the plates in the kitchen so I could tell a guy "o, I'm sorry. I'm stuck in my aunt's house taking care of the dishes". Yes, it's that serious.
I've had it bad with relationships so as a human, there's always something at the back of my mind reminding me of the last experience anytime there's someone new and interested. In as much as I'm supposed to be cautious it's not right to be disappointing people like that.
I'm having it really hard trusting people again but I have to learn to say yes and stick to the agreement or say no. I think that's much better than saying yes, giving a person assurance and then saying no.
The Recoiling Habit
I also have this bad habit of recoiling from a person after an argument, a misunderstanding, even a bit of scolding. No matter how insignificant a problem was with a friend or anyone else, I tend to recoil after it. I do not like to be criticised but I admit criticism sometimes is very necessary. I do not like to be scolded too but of course if I do something wrong I will likely get scolded.
I find it very hard to keep on doing the things I used to do with a person. If I get scolded or we have a misunderstanding I simply flinch and just withdraw.
I may be asked over and over again what the problem is yet I'll say nothing. Truth is oftentimes there's really nothing wrong but I just find it hard to be myself after the issue. I just go quiet, I don't talk and unless the person talks to me, it is almost impossible to talk to the person again. I don't know, I just lose the courage to say anything to the person.
Doing Things At My Convenience
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Another bad habit I have is always wanting to do everything at a time that's convenient to me. This particular one mostly happens with my mum. My mother just has a way of always sending me on an errand at the wrong time. By saying the wrong time I mean a time not appropriate for me. The time that I just want to jump on my bed and sleep, construct a fictional story, write or just do something else.
Most times once I hear my name I'll just scream "aaaarghhhhhh" because I don't want to be bothered in that moment. I just want to concentrate and finish whatever I'm doing.
The bad part is that if I don't really feel like standing up, I won't stand up unless I feel up to it and that's not right.
I should be able to always do things even if it's inconvenient to me especially if it involves an elder. Everything should not always be when I want. So I'm trying hard to change that. I respond to calls even when I'm busy. I try to shove the things I'm doing aside unless what I'm doing can't wait then I'll just ask for a few more minutes to finish up.
Reading Procrastination
I have a problem with reading school books for fun. It's very difficult. Currently in Nigeria most federal universities are on strike. We've been home since February till date. I haven't opened a single book to read and I'm afraid. Immediately after the strike will come exams.
As a good student, I'm supposed to read ahead of time and I've been having some free time but I can't read.
Yesterday I said I'll read today. Today I'm saying I'll read tomorrow. The circle just goes on.
Normally, I study better when under pressure but it's not the best of options because the volume of things I have to cover is a lot and I never always go through it all.
I really wish to do better but I can't seem to break out of this habit. Somebody help me! Please!!!
The habit of piling up dirty clothes
In a list of all house chores, I hate washing clothes the most😂 I keep them all piled up till I notice I'm running out of clothes. I hate washing!
The thought of sitting down to 'scrub' clothes till they get clean makes me want to cry. When I even remember that my fingers are going to get sore after washing I feel much worse.
One of the things I want to have in my house is the washing machine. There's no way I'll be washing with my hands for life. I can't deal with that. Maybe when I have a washing machine I'll stop piling up my dirty clothes. 😁 But for now, I try to wash my clothes as soon as they get dirty to avoid heaping them up. It's really hard but I'm trying.
These are the few bad habits I'll like to change. I equally have good sides, a really good one but today I just wanted to talk about the bad things I need to change. Thank you for reading.
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