Well I'm still here! Thats a good start really as my mind was having ideas of hopping off to a more comfortable style of retreat... I even got as far as googling a few other fully luxury Ayurvedic retreats nearby.. but they just felt too opulent, fake and spoiled. I think yesterdays dinner was somewhat understated! Before i came here i was expecting a kind of lavish Ayurvedic diet, super healthy but also varied and with many tastes. Then i soon realised that this was an intensive course and not some pampering luxury.
Anyways, i chose this course and despite the meagre portions (i had a topup thankfully!), i was hungry enough that even those two slices of carrot tasted so good and sweet. Its funny how even the most basic food can taste so good if you are hungry enough. Yesterday lunch i had what they called barley soup. It was pretty horrid really, more like wallpaper paste if im honest.. and yet i lapped up every drop!
THis morning i was pleasantly surprised to have a plate of something very tasty, sweet, and with peanuts on the top! How did they know I was craving peanuts :) Im not sure what you call this dish, they tried to tell me the name.. but its local, quite sweet, and soft and full of aromatic flavours. I even ate all the fruit despite them being fuzzy!
Well i have to say, i dont know how but somehow i am actually ok with this, and not craving food, junk, crips, or feeling hungry at all really. Maybe its the diet, maybe its the constant migranes ive been having.. i dont know but im really glad that somehow im OK with it!
The sea and beach are a thrice daily treat now.. A quick Sunrise walk and view of the sun is always a great way to start the day, and then as it heats up I can have a nice swim. I still cant believe how warm the sea is here, its like a swimming pool! ITs also very clean, at least visually, which also feels really good. And the sand, wow, the sand is just like the most powdery dust like talcum powder ive felt before.
The whole centre is mostly farm land, with lots of vegetables, herbs, and many medicines growing. They are fully off grid and self sufficient here and its good to see the owner Dr Raviraj really run the whole place with such simplicity and wisdom.
So its early morning for me, and im really hoping that perhaps today i may get through the entire day without a migrane. THey have been sucking the life out of me recently, and its just no fun always being in pain. I must say that this morning i do not feel so much of the pressure in my head, so that is a good sign! Also i have another treatment in about an hour and I think they help.
It's all very mysterious what will happen next. I have no plan, papers, or explanation about what is happening or what the entire process is like. I kind of like it, every day a surprise. I think the doctor knows what he is doing, but I think he just gets on with it. He has SO much experience, and i just trust the word of my many friends who have been here.
Heres a shot of me on the beach, doing what i can to get positive, and move through this little life challenge until the end! Im not even sure when that is! Maybe two weeks?!