"I have never seen the righteous forsaken nor his children begging for bread".
These exact words kept running through my head! Hmmm, but it looks to me like he has forsaken me, it actually looks like his children are the ones now begging for bread.
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How do we relate this scripture with having to spend 7years in the university for a 4 year course yet no certificate to show for it. I prayed, fasted, believed, spoke positively about breaking limits but the more I tried pushing, it looked like a mighty wind kept blowing me backwards.
All I did wrong was having aspirations and taking my studies as my number one priority like every good student.Yes I know my first year results weren't all that balanced but couldn't have led to this after all.
Tell me what did I do wrong for him to allow this ache on me, just tell me how do I face the world? How do I face my parents whose only crime was accepting to deprive themselves of food sometimes, if need be, just because they wanted their little girl to be educated since they couldn't because of finance.
How do I face my two younger siblings who have so much faith in their big sister becoming an Educationist and lecturing in a good university. 'No just tell me how to break this news to them'.
Didn't he say "Call upon me in the days of trouble, and I will deliver you and you shall glorify me"? Exactly why I kept Calling upon him for 7 years but he failed me.
You know, what if I could ask God a question. I would definitely ask him why he took me through this journey of pain, agony, shame, and ache, just to leave me hanging?
And I just want him to say to me 'Wake up my child, it was only but a dream!'