It took me a while to put my thoughts into writing because this is that part of my life that I find really hard to share.
Anytime my mom prays with me, I get really teary because she never misses the opportunity to thank God for the fact her daughter doesn’t lack anything. I mean, I always have everything I need and in as much my mom wants to be a mother, she’s always happy and proud that I can do whatever I want for myself without having to involve her, financially.
It took a while to get here and that “while” taught me a lot of things. I won’t even deny the fact that I’m happy about the things I learned on my way to where I am at the moment. However, at the moment, none of that even matters because this is not the ideal life I want. One thing that would make my life complete is to build a charity organization for cancer patients.
The purpose of the organization would be to create cancer awareness and to help out with the treatment bills of cancer patients.
About a year ago, I lost my elder sister to cancer. Thinking about the whole process and what she went through seriously messes with my head. Now that she’s no more, I feel like there was no point coming this far. Like I came this far for nothing. What’s the point of winning when you can’t celebrate with the ones you love?
You know what’s sad? She went through chemotherapy but she still suffered so much. She went through so much pain, and from what I know, chemo is so expensive. So imagine someone who doesn’t have money to go through chemotherapy? That person will even go through much more pain. Tell me what they did to deserve this?
Anytime I talk about building a charity organization for cancer patients, people don’t really understand because they don’t see why someone who doesn’t really own a lot of properties would rather want to spend her resources on such a “thing”. Well, honestly, I don’t blame them because they don’t know how it feels like to go through what I went through and that is totally wrong.
You don’t have to wait to experience anything before you fight against it. Let me end here before my emotions take control over me. Currently, I volunteer for a foundation that helps orphans and needy people every December. This is kind of helping me build myself for what I want to do and in about some years to come, I should be able achieve this goal and put smiles on people’s faces.
There’s actually a lot I need to do for my personal life yeah? But I genuinely feel like that none of them would even matter if I don’t get this heart desire of mine up and running soon. Thank you for your time.