Well, would I sound awkward if I say that I am always indoors but I think I am an outdoor person?
The dilemma which I find myself in makes me scream “I need to be saved”. Someone save my soul. I feel like Rapunzel who is locked up in the tower and my hairs all grown and am waiting for a prince to come save me from this dungeon.
Well, my case is that bad. I practically stay in doors days to days, week to week. Do you know that if you put me in a house with food, water and internet that I can stay inside that room for a whole month and not step out. Well that’s how bad I’ve gotten. Someone SOS or do I say SMS (save my soul).
I wasn’t like this, I was working in some company but I became like this when I resigned and started working online as a content creator. So am mostly all day on my phone and computer typing away and doing stuffs and when am bored, I see some movies and do other things I like but all online.
The only time I practically get to leave my house is when am going to church or to the market to buy stuffs to cook. That’s bad. I have no close friends who live nearby. Most of them live very far away.
Sometimes I want to go out but I don’t even know where to go to. Am one year in this city and practically know no where. I want to step out but that am seem like one big deal.
Well, you could say, girl get up and take yourself out and put yourself out there. Many people have told me that too but somehow am always looking at my budget and how putting myself out there would be capital intensive. Hahahaha don’t mind me but its part of what I consider. I live in a tight budget and am always cumbered by bills that I barely have enough to take care of me like that.
Well maybe with time I could get to start doing that if I get all the encouragement I need. Infact, I think am ready to change cos I had to submit myself to one of my friends and told her to ensure she pulls me out to join her whenever she’s going out.
Something keeps me indoors. I don’t like it believe me. I believe am meant to be out there. My introvertedness if there’s anything like that has matured to introversy and I need saving…SMS someone….anyone!