Mommy's Mental Health - Chapter 89-❤️Interviews and Attempted Self-improvement❤️

I had an interview on Tuesday, A pretty damn decent one too: three hours a day of medical billing. Sounds amazing, Right? I somehow overslept but still managed to make it there on time. Hive account@zakludick was incredible al helping me with everything I needed to get out of the door! You know when you are asked do you have any questions fir us ad you just stare blankly like a deer in the headlamps? Well, I felt pretty stupid afterwards as I made a list of good ones, should I be offered the opportunity of a second interview.

Life is no joke at the moment and reality is starting to set in. And so is severe depression. I hardly ever leave the bedroom. Today, I managed to "sleep in" a bit, waking up at 4h30 instead of 2h30am. I haven't been able to sleep again and the nightmares are back. I have bow gotten into the habit of and then I go back to bed at 8getting up and doing something useful, like posting or studying instead of staring at the ceiling on the dark and thinking about every horrible thing that has ever happened to me. I figured its far healthier to do things this way around.

I have felt pretty lonely in those wee hours of the morning, but Hive account@aimeludick's insane morning routine, on the days she is working her part time job, has her up at 4am and gives me someone to hug, chat to and have coffee with. <3

I am trying to get myself back into a "normal sleeping pattern so I don't battle "jetlag" (as Hive account@zaludick has dubbed it) with too much, should I be the one of like over 20 candidates to land the position. There are others, and I will keep looking. Please send some good vibes my way <3