my absolute FAVORITE pic of MobeyDick Live!
Good grief I can't believe this is chapter 40. I feel like I should get a Noddy badge or something. Well, I did just eat a cupcake (which was FUCKING DELICIOUS) and enjoyed a lovely hot chai latte, so I'm feeling quite spoilt.
The glamour of baking (and eating all the leftover icing that gets stuck to my arms and cooking implements - it's a hard jb ok? lol.)
They did turn out great though... pity I'm not terrible at baking. I'd be a lot skinnier!
Between baking escapades (where I baked a cake for my best friends who aren't even in the country like a poepol (nincompoop): See the side story here:
...and musical adventures for children's charity, I'm afraid I've been confined to bed rest for a few days while the white-hot-stabbing-glass pain in my back dissipates. I am back on stage on Thursday so let's hope I'm better by then!
Awesome actionshot. No makeup, no fancy anything, just me vibing with these freaking phenomenal kids.
I went to go visit my fancy pants super expensive GP last week (who definitely is worth every penny - even if I can only see him every 6 months) and he's also super concerned about my pain levels. We've upped my pain meds, but I'm definitely going to be visiting the CBD experts here in Table View (their shop only opens at 10 am so they must be experts 😂😜) to see if they can supply me with a nice strong dose to assist me with the pain AND my anxiety. My Dr has endorsed this so I'm totally going to give it a go.
Taking Back The Reins - Part 7 - Being Gentle With My Physical Self While Reaching for My Dreams
In the meanwhile, I'm trying to find ways to occupy my overactive brain while I'm between clients and awaiting my next book project. I knew it would be tough starting out. You know, not everyone wants to give a newbie a chance. The idea is to at least get my 1st 5 orders under my belt so that my ratings will start appearing on my profile and clients will be able to see what work I have done. My 1st book is still in the editing phase, so I have to wait for that process to be completed before that one displays as completed. Shewee. It's quite a learning curve.
Isn't she beautiful?
I also came across this great shot of my mom, proudly clutching her BA (honors) in English literature and I'm so inspired to go for my own degree (as soon as I can afford it). She was heading for her 60th birthday, but she was determined and I am so proud of her. What an inspiring lady. Even if she does drive me nuts.
I've set up pictures all over my mirror next to my bed to help me when I wake up in the mornings. That's when I struggle the most. The next step is to get one of those adult coloring-in books with either swearwords or positive affirmations, or both, and paste up the ones that resonate with me around my room once I'm done coloring them in.
The mornings are the hardest time for me at the moment. Look, I'm full of gratitude that I get to be at home in my state. I can't imagine dealing with this level of pain in a regular work environment. At least now, I can take things at my own pace, rest when I need to, and work when I need to. I feel amazing after my afternoon naps, but somehow, after a good night's sleep, I wake up feeling awful. I have bad dreams from about 4 am and then I wake up to an empty house. I am trying to get out for an hour, even if it's just a trip to the pharmacy or to the shop, just to get my head right. It does seem to help. Then I can come home and carry on with my day.
for you my darling 
I am blessed to have such a beautiful family and such a loving man in my life.
I am blessed that I am pursuing so many of my dreams despite everything and for that I am both proud and grateful.
I just need reminders. I have bad days where I forget. Or bad parts of the day where I'm in pain, or not feeling motivated... and I think that's ok, as long as I don't pack up and live there in the depression hole.
I could live in this hoodie...
Getting back to working with community empowerment programs, charity work, and getting my butt back on stage with 
I'm also BESIDE MYSELF with excitement that TWO of my favorite international bands are coming to Cape Town in 2025, The Offspring and Green Day who will also be supported by arguably one of South Africa's coolest bands, Fokof Polisiekar (directly translates from Afrikaans to English into "fuck off police car") which is the twentieth anniversary of when this photo was taken of me flashing Dexter Holland from The Offspring. Do I recreate it? Will I need a crane and paramedics on standby? Hahahaha. You know what, I'm just thrilled that I'll get to see them on stage again.
I do feel like I'm turning a corner, which is just wonderful. I think we are turning a corner as a family. And no matter what we find on the other side, we've got each other and that's pretty damn awesome.
Thanks to all of you who've been reading my posts and giving me some love and support from wherever you are in the world.
You have no idea how much it's meant. Just a word of kindness or encouragement. Just one small gesture can change a person's whole day. <3
Also, as a closing note, if you haven't already, please give this series a go! What a cheesy, heartwarming, crazy, beautiful, offbeat, and whacky series to get all the feels going and inspiration pumping. Brilliant brilliant brilliant!
