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One of my favorite movies of all time... I kind of wish there was a potion like that after all. I get it now!
Urgh. What a wild start to 2025 we've had! My Immune and digestive systems have taken a massive knock, and this is despite eating very healthy meals (minus one or two nights of ice cream in the middle of the night).
The cause, so I have deduced is simply stress. There's nothing scarier than your partner going into hospital with something as serious as cellulitis. 
A) really appreciate all your partner does
B) Get your arse into gear if you don't have medical aid
C) Get your arse into gear and get life insurance
It's been a week and a half since Zak came home for good, so I guess this is some kind of delayed response. I have been nursing him every day, and I am so pleased to say we have made incredible progress and the wound is closing 🙏🙏💜💜
firstly, I have been battling with awful night sweats and generally feeling hot all the time. Could it be hot flushes? Am I premenopausal? This started long before Zak went into hospital though so I'm guessing that I have to face the truth that as my 40th birthday approaches, my body will start gearing up for the next phase of my life. I wasn't ready for this at all as my mom only went through menopause at 50+, but my menstruation is fairly regular so I don't think it's menopause just yet. I remember starting my period and people telling me I'd have them for my whole life, or for thirty to forty years, and back then, that felt like forever. Now, at the age of 39/40, suddenly 30 years doesn't seem like much at all.
I then started realizing that I hadn't been "regular" in at least a few days and I was starting to feel it in my bones and joints (which are usually sore anyway, so it may have taken longer than usual to pick up) and in my system making me feel nauseous.
The first night I tried to go to the bathroom, I honestly felt like I was giving birth. With sweat pouring down my face and uttering horrible curses for 45 minutes, I almost asked Zak for a pair of kitchen tongs and some surgical gloves as I wasn't doing well on my own.
It's like my body shut down that function and poured everything into our family. I have tried absolutely everything from prunes (which are horribly expensive - but do the job better than anything else);
to probiotics in tablet form and in my yoghurt,
to Aloe crystals - which taste horrific but also work (although they really don't help the nausea at first - but once it's down it's ok) ... somewhat...
to oats, which I haven't eaten since winter, and I've even tried drinking coffee.
I even made some high-fiber muffins last night, which turned out... okayish but kinda flopped as well. My apple, raisin, and cinnamon muffins turned into flying saucers as I buggered up the measurements. I mean... they're ok... ish but not my best.
Now I've been trying really hard to look after that side of my health, that a nasty germ/ virus found a way in and I now have the flu! I mean, WTF? I am dosing myself with antihistamines, hot lemon drinks, anti-inflammatories, and throat lozenges but I honestly feel like I've been run over by a truck... and then reversed over again, just to be sure.
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Matthew was complaining of a stuffy nose a few nights ago which has become progressively worse, and him being such an affectionate child... I know where it came from. We'll probably all get it. It's time to stock up on flu meds anyway. The season changes are basically upon us and there are some nasty bugs going around.
I will have to try to get myself to the pharmacy later, but if I don't manage, I'm sending Zak, who is back at work today 😪❤️
The only thing I can really do now is rest, so rest I shall <3