This has got to be one the hardest content I have got to write on this platform, loosing my dad in the year 2020 came as a shock to my family and I, it was definitely the most unexpected bad news I have ever heard in my life time, few weeks before my dad passed on, he called me and said “Deborah I want you to come back home, your brother’s house is not your home” but I was reluctant because I was angry with him, he cheated on my mother and did it openly, I have no reason to come back home afterall you no longer stay with us, you now stay with your wife! I said…I hated all the drama happening at home so I packed my bags and began to stay with my elder brother.
My dad left home angrily and that was the last time we ever spoke and saw each other, it was around 8:30 to 9pm on the 6th of October, my brother’s phone rang, he was given the biggest shock of his life, my brother immediately went outside to continue the call because he didn’t want us to know, but immediately I felt something was definitely wrong and I could feel it very strongly, he came back inside broke the news, I couldn’t help the tears rolling down my cheeks, the most painful part was that the person I loved the most left me on a bad note, I didn’t get to have any last laugh with him or jokes, no hugs or even a good conversation.
Letter to my dad
Dad I wish we could have a few moments of reconciliation, Yes I was hurt by your actions but I never wanted it to end in such a way that I would regret all through my lifetime, I miss you so much, all I have of you are only pictures and memories.. most times when your thought comes through my mind I quickly stop thinking because it would definitely end in tears!
I love you, I miss you, I wish I could turn back the hands of time, I would have come back home like you wanted, I would you have told you how I loved and valued you always, I know death is inevitable but I wonder why it chose you so early, one of my greatest pain was that you didn’t see me graduate from the university, I’m deeply hurt and angry with you because of the way you left my siblings and I without a word of goodbye, but its been three years now, I will definitely find a place in my heart to forgive you because trust me you left a big hole in my heart that nobody can ever replace in my lifetime.
I LOVE YOU DAD🌺🕊️
THANKS FOR READING 🌺