Just read ur whole post, n believe me I read post on Hive after almost 3 years. The situation u told above is really bad n full of worries n if i place myself in ur place n situation, I would be really disappointed from the Life itself even though i m not a lad.
ImV, u really need to take serious steps against all this. If possible try to talk wd family members about all this n i really pray that ur problems get resolved soon. How many kids u got blessed?