The silence of being alone with my thoughts. It's a peculiar thing, that I have start to get hold on as time passes by One moment, I'm surrounded by the hustle and bustle of life, and the next, I'm face to face with the echoes of my mind. It's in these moments that I often find myself reflecting on the past, replaying memories
My thoughts wander to loved ones those that where always there for me but are now no longer with me, and I can't help but wonder what they would say or do if they were still here. I catch myself turning to ask them questions, as if they were still sitting next to me, their presence as real as the air I breathe. It's filled with a mix of emotions that threaten to overwhelm me.
Well when sometimes I recall how things keeps going I do miss my elder brother and Dad sometimes it might seems the way it's is but because of the motivation and encouragement I basically received and the way I was taught by him
my greatest fear in life is losing the ways and morals I was taught by people that where there. for me in the beginning
sometimes I sat down and wish the will be with me and talk to me tell ke what to do and how to do it
the fear of making mistakes hunt me down But then when someone is afraid of mistakes is because he or she has not try something new I always want to try but be careful when doing so sometimes I assume my deceased loved one's are there to make the right decision for me so sometimes I ask myself if the where me what will be there actions how will the take there steps
the fear of living in the shadows was always on me it's was hard for me to let lose of the old me and follow my thoughts but sometimes is best for your love ones to guild you through some process but then live bold enough to make your decision I feel an individual thoughts matter's to me just build a positive mindsets to conquer
In these moments of solitude, I'm reminded that life is precious, that love is the greatest gift we can give, and that those memories will never die inside of me I'm reminded that even in death, love never dies, and that those who have left us behind will always be with us in spirit.
As I sit here, surrounded by the silence of my thoughts, I know that I'm not alone. I have the memories of those who have shaped me and encouraged me to the person I am today. I have their love, their strength, and their guidance I miss there presence but I have hope, the knowledge that no matter what life throws my way, I'll always have the courage to face it head-on, knowing that they'll always be with me, in my heart and in my memories.
All photos used here belongs to my sister and mom