What's in it!

What's in it?

I guess you've wondered what's with the title “What's in it? ”.

It's a journey through life and what's in it. For many years, my life has been a whirlwind. I've encountered heavy rains and storms, but the ray of the rainbow is my symbol of hope. It is the ray that I would find just to hope that there will always be tomorrow, despite being in constant backseat. It is that hope that would give me strength to rise up every dawn and sleep like a careless child at night.

It's funny to think that as we age, it's either we learn and mature or it's the other way around. I tend to think that not all people of mature age are really mature. But as I grew a year older, I somehow developed maturity in myself, as I always viewed myself as a careless, happy-go-lucky kind of person. But in my current state of maturity, where I no longer seek to validate others' notions of me, where I no longer find myself wanting my wants, and where I no longer look for short-term goals, I find the words “growing up" and “maturing" really deep. Because if life gives you all that you need and if luck is always by your side, what lesson could you learn?

Can you really nurture your mind by doing nothing and by receiving everything without working hard for it? The answer is no. I've seen children on television and in the city who are more mature than those who live in shelter. I've seen them work, carry the burden of their parents, and cry because life has been so unfair to them. They were treated differently because they were born in difficult times. Our experiences make us mature. That's why, at the earliest of January in the year 2024, I found myself puzzled as to what was in me. What is beyond my life? How am I supposed to negotiate with adversity to become an opportunity? Am I really growing up? Have I matured? And the answer to every question I have lies beyond my life.

And I have found it. My mind is a place of complex structure, and sometimes I struggle to understand it. However, it is within my mind to think of what my heart truly seeks. And to balance my heart and my mind would give me the answers I truly need.

What is beyond my life?

Beyond my life are many doors, of which I do not know what lies behind them. There are doors of opportunity that will be opened once I decide to find their key. And to find its key, there are struggles and hurdles that I need to overcome.

How am I supposed to negotiate with adversity to become an opportunity?

It feels like a question of how I should turn a bad situation into a good one. How should I turn negativity into positivity? Only our mindset and perspective on the world and everything that it has to offer can turn a bad situation into a good one. Our actions speak volumes of what the consequences or outcome will be because we control our actions, and therefore, we got to decide if we were to internalize that bad situation or negativity, and we got to decide if we were to change our perspective and understand the humanity behind their action that caused us deep sadness.

Am I really growing up? Have I matured?

If I can still find solitude in the midst of turmoil, I have grown up and matured in a way that I no longer care what people have to say about me; I no longer think of situations that make my current one a bad one; and I no longer feel the need to rush through many things that are not in line with my path because I have grown and matured in a way that people do not expect me to be, and that's life. People mature differently because we experience many things differently. We do not hold the life of the other, and so we cannot experience their situation very well. That's why we need to be empathetic toward others.

I also encountered friendships that have fallen apart, and along the way, I built a new set of friends as I journeyed through the new phase of my life.

Well, my life was never all about me because we were born in this world with friends and family to lean on. My journey includes everyone that I love and have loved. Without them, I wouldn't be in this new state of my life. They're like the lessons and the support that molded me this way, and for that, I will always be grateful for the lessons, even if they come in the most painful way, and I will always be thankful for the people who have cherished, supported, and listened to everything that my heart wants to say.