‎Where I Am vs Where I Was. #249

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Hello beautiful and amazing ladies of Hive.😍 Welcome to my blog. Sit tight as I take you in an honest ride.😃
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‎Sometimes I just sit and think about how far I have come not because everything is perfect now, but because it hasn’t always been this way. I remember how lost I felt after finishing school. Everyone seemed to have a plan. Some people were applying for jobs and getting them, others were going abroad, and I was just there........Confused or should I rather say uncertain.....

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‎I applied for jobs, so many of them. Some I was qualified for, some I just hoped for. Most of them never replied. A few sent rejection emails. One interview went well, but they never called back. Days turned into weeks. Weeks turned into months and I started to doubt myself. I began to feel like I wasn’t good enough. I saw people around me posting their achievements, new jobs, new businesses, travels, and wins. Meanwhile, I was waking up every day to check my emails and see nothing.

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‎One day, I decided to stop applying for a while. Not because I had given up, but because I was tired. Everything was choking and I needed to breathe. I spent more time reading, journaling, and reflecting. I began to write down the things I was learning about myself, about life, about patience.
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‎After few months, a friend asked me to help write something for their blog. I couldn't say no because it's what I love doing, and it felt like I wasn’t doing much, but then, I helped, and they liked it. That was how I got recommendations on writing. But before then, I wasn't doing writing jobs and I didn’t even know they existed. It wasn’t planned. But it was worth doing.

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‎Looking back now, I see how the waiting period wasn’t empty. It was a quiet one. But not useless. I was learning and I was becoming. There were days I prayed for the kind of life I now live, and I was reminded that growth is not always loud; sometimes it’s silent, and you only notice it when you pause and look back. ‎That realization changed how I saw things. I stopped being so hard on myself. I stopped measuring my life with someone else’s ruler. I started paying attention to my journey. I don’t try to have a perfect plan anymore. I don’t stress too much about getting everything right. I just move one step at a time.

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‎It’s not always easy. There are days I still feel unsure. Days when I compare myself. Days when I wonder if I’m doing enough. But now, I stop and remind myself of all the things I once prayed for that I now have. And I keep going. I don’t have everything figured out yet, but then, I’m not where I used to be and that’s what keeps me moving forward.
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