How Do People See me? How Do I Wish People Saw Me?
Understanding how people see me versus how I wish to be seen has been a significant journey in my life. Reflecting on these experiences has not only helped me understand myself better but has also allowed me to make conscious changes to align my self perception with how I am perceived by others.
The Emotional and Troublesome Girl
For a significant part of my life, I was often seen as the emotional and troublesome girl. Emotions are a powerful force, and for me, they were especially intense. This led people to view me as someone who could easily be upset or cause disruptions. It wasn’t necessarily that I was always in turmoil, but rather that my emotional responses were more visible and frequent than those of my peers. This perception, while partially true, didn’t capture the full essence of who I was. It felt limiting and, at times, unfair. Well, how best do I describe this now? Chia.
The Turning Point
There came a point when I started questioning myself. I asked whether this emotional, troublesome persona was truly who I was or if it was just how others chose to see me. This very thought was the main reason for my change. I began to make deliberate efforts to manage my emotions better and to present myself differently. I wanted people to see the intelligence, the self improvement, and the rationality that I knew were also integral parts of me. Stay with me , I'm going somewhere.
The Evolution
Through a lot of self reflection and conscious effort, I worked on maintaining my emotions and reactions in a more measured way. I started reading books on emotional intelligence, attending workshops, and even sought the guidance of mentors who could provide me with constructive feedback. I focused on showcasing my intelligence and my capacity for self improvement. Gradually, people’s perceptions began to shift, how did I do this I asked myself many days even when knowing the work I have put haha. They started seeing me as a smart, self improved individual who could handle her emotions with a measured approach.
However, with these changes, a new perception emerged: some began to see me as manipulative. It’s an interesting paradox haha. While I wanted to be seen as intelligent and composed, I didn’t anticipate that these traits could also be interpreted as manipulative. It’s a reminder that I can’t always control how others perceive me, even when I make conscious efforts to guide that perception. This was a tough pill to swallow, but it was also a valuable lesson in understanding the complexities of human perception.
The Balance
Today, I strive to balance these perceptions. I want people to see me as intelligent and self improved, yet also authentic and sincere. I’ve learned that while I can influence how others see me, it’s equally important to stay true to myself. My true essence should shine through the impressions I seek to create. This balance is crucial because being seen as manipulative, even if unintended, can undermine the genuine qualities I want to be recognized for.
To achieve this balance, I continue to work on self awareness and authenticity. All thanks to this contest because here I am sharing my experience. I engage in regular self reflection and seek feedback from trusted friends and colleagues. I also practice mindfulness to stay grounded and ensure that my actions align with my values. By doing so, I hope to project an image that is both genuine and reflective of my inner growth because I won't trade I for anything, I swear down.
In conclusion, my journey from being seen as emotional and troublesome to being recognized as intelligent and composed shows how powerful self-reflection and conscious change can be. While I can influence how people see me, their perceptions will always be a bit complex. The key is to stay true to myself and make sure the image I project is genuine and reflects my growth. By embracing this journey, I keep evolving and striving to be the best version of myself, both for me and for others.
PS: non sources image is originally mine
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