This year has been my personal annus horribilis and we I have been feeling inside pretty much like these flowers:
I have been doing some soul searching and I know now that I can't keep living in this tiny town as I'm deep inside city girl and this is whole thing is not for me.
Unfortunately it has lead to a crash course as when you live with someone you need to decide the right course for the relationship and this just meant game over in this case.
But the funny thing is that I'm not even sad. I'm feeling excited and relieved as I realize now that I have not been living for myself, but for the other person and trying to make their dream to come true.
The thing is, if I would die tomorrow accidentally I would be so furious because I didn't do the things or live where I wanted.
Maybe this year was supposed to be my wake-up call and really make me see what really matters to me.
I can maybe bloom now again and start a new game while keeping in mind what I have learned this year.
