There's no manual of life.
In one event I can choose acceptance but in another, I can be very resistant. Very personal things, that I've been waiting for a long, want with all my heart; would be hard to accept if that doesn't work/go well.
But the baton is in my hand, whether I choose to press the button of anger/frustration or I decide to be accepting.
I wouldn't lie, my mood works in a 'normal way'.
I question, 'Why me?' a lot.
I get frustrated and feel anxious to accept at first.
Then reality hit me and I can see the true nature of the event.
Later, I work on to accept the situation.
Does that make me 'accepting'? I guess so. Because in the end, I usually don't fight if I see there's no benefit in resisting (in most of the cases that's the reality). So, what else can we do?
There was a time when I used to resist and it would take me a good amount of time to accept the loss and pain. The more I age, my emotions mature with me (I'm fortunate for that). Probably, it's because life gave me some hard lesson or maybe I work on my emotions and that shows.
I have shared earlier, how covid affected my life; financially, physically, and mentally. I have gone through a lot in the past years.
That taught me a good lesson. And what I discovered is -
Accepting, "It is what it is", and "I need to accept and move on" are the biggest lessons.
We can't fight with our physical condition, only can get help to make it better. We can't fight if we lose our job, or our financial situation slips from our hands. We can only accept the fact and work to do better in the future. We can't resist if our relationship gets a little thought. We can only work on making it soft and going smoothly again.
So the black and white answer to the question 
I can safely say, now I'm more calm than in my teen years and even in my early 30s. I do not resist anymore, do not panic. Even if life snatched away everything from me, I would probably take a deep breath and look for a solution/path to move forward.
I can't remember, when was the last time I cried because of frustration and anger. While writing this, I was thinking, that I need to appreciate my achievements more.
Although, it's quite natural to fall into the old pattern of mood sometimes but I learned to get out. Or I would say, life taught me to move forward...
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