Have you tried breathing in your mouth? I bet you do, specially if you have a clog on your nose because of cold. Why am I even asking right (≧▽≦).
Sleeping, Talking and Running when you have clogged nose is very hard. But did you know I endure it for almost 9 years since I was just in High School, I was in second year I think if my memory serves me right. In that time I already master breathing in my Mouth.
I remember I was once a happy kid back then even if I have that clog on my nose. It never stop me on doing what I want, talking to my friend, bond with them in school and off course looking for a prospect crushes is also part of that.
I was just fortunate that I never receive bullying even if I sound like I have that nasal defect. Well, I really have that nasal defect before, thanks to that nasal polyp.
Have you heard about nasal polyp before? To give you an insight, it is a soft flesh that grow in nose or sinuses. Luckily it is noncancerous so even if I learn about that before I didn't overthink that I might die because of that little thing in my nose. I just learn about it year 2015 when Mom told me to look for it on google because her friend told her that the friend of her friend experienced that nasal polyp too. To know more about nasal polyp you can visit this LINK
I didn't bother looking at it before even though I can do it naman, but I guess I am just too afraid that time to learn about this nasal polyp that's why I didn't made a research about it. But when Mom told me to look for it on google off course I just followed her and I just sigh in relief after reading it that time. "I'm still good, I am not gonna die." This is the line that I told to myself that time lol.
But before anything else, let me tell you first a story of what I experienced before this nasal polyp was removed in my nose.
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I was just High School when I first feel this on my nose. It's not that big pa so I'm still okay with it. But the problem is, I always have this "mucus" coming out on my nose and it's a hassle for me tbh. It's uncomfortable because sometimes it will just flow suddenly without a notice. It is like when you have cold, that runny nose.
I hate that I am experiencing it and I hate that I feel like I am the only one suffering while my classmates has no problem on their nose while doing this or that, me on the other hand is already annoyed. Even Mom notice that I seems like I have a cold because of that runny nose that never leave me. She can tell coz of my voice.
I just leave my nose like that and didnt bother giving much attention to it. What I did is just buy a lot of handkerchief and that's where I started covering my nose and my life still continue. As if I have a choice to stop that time.
College Days, I still have it and I still have my hanky with me. And that's where I notice that this thing in my nose is slowly growing. And my voice, I really sound like I have a nasal defect and what Im saying sometimes can't be understand. Thats also where I started to get aware of my own situation. I am not as talkative like before. I just get too shy because of my voice.
Even when our Prof will call me when they ask to read something on the book, my voice is so little that its hard to understand more what I'm saying. My confidence level that time also hit Zero lever to the point that I won't talk. Except off course if I'm talking to my friends. I am just shy to speak in the crowd coz they will know that I sound ugly.
There is this one time when one of my friend asked me what is this thing in my nose. Maybe they saw it when I remove the hanky on my face. Because it becomes bigger when I reach my 4th Year on College, it will really come out on my nose and if I dont use a cover anyone will see it. Well, I can't really cover my nose all day specially we love to eat. I will need to remove that hanky so I can eat. By covering it, I used my hands to cover it. So, I just told to my friend what it is and lucky me coz they never made fun of me. They are a real friend indeed.
And if there are some important occasion I just drink a med that will move back this things inside my nose. If I remember it right I think I take Mefenamic just to hide this for awhile. Off course I only take it occasionally coz I know it is bad if I take too much. It's a big help really, but when I take my On The Job Training year 2016 that's where I take that med a lot like 3 times a week or more if it come out again. It's a big hassle for me coz the money that I used to buy that med will be used to other thing, if only I don't have this thing in my nose.
Anyways let me share one of my photo, the time that I still have that nasal polyp in my nose. You can very much tell that my nose here is look like a stretched soft ball that was stuffed by a lot of things even though it is already full. It is stretched and because of that my small nose before become wider. And it is swelling too, can you see it? Can you tell it? I didn't squeeze my nose fully that time I just put my finger there but I didn't put any weight. The Polyp that time is already big that sometimes I feel like my nose is stretching more and it can be suffocating too you know.
My life is still normal that time but there are really times I am wishing that I don't have this. Because of lack of money too that is why it can't be removed yet. That just like others, I have a normal voice. Like I dont have to be shy whenever I will talk.
If only (｡•́︿•̀｡).
Then year 2017, that time we already have a money that we can use to remove that thing in my nose. But off course we still asked for some assistance other institution, as for me I was able to ask to PCSO and lucky me coz I was granted for the expenses for my CT Scan. Aside from that, thanks to PhilHealth we saved a lot because of that.
And here's the findings on my nose. Both holes on my nose has big Nasal Polyp that really gives a hard time on me. When I remember those time that I had to cover my nose because of embarrassment, I have this loud voice that is saying to me that "Never Again Ruffa." Because really, it makes me miserable and I don't want to go back on that phase of my life again. But everything is in the past now. All I can do now is to take care of myself anf avoid those things that is not allowed like dust etc.
And this is me after the operation. That's my late sister the one hodling the phone. I have a lot of photos of mine before but I delete it because I look ugly in it, lol Uglier than this I mean. Coz it's Mom who took it so.
And I thank my Mom for giving this opportunity again to live like a normal human being without thinking about my nose or that nasal polyp again. My nose here is smaller than the fist picture right? And so I will really be careful not to have that again coz according to Mr. Goggle, there is really a big chance that it grows back again. And that's I don't want to happen.
But even if Nasal Polyp was already removed in my Nose, my Sense of Taste and sense of Smell didn't come back anymore. I'm Not sure what's the trigger but there are times that I can smell and taste but only for a few seconds to minutes. And if that happen, I will smell those things I love to smell or taste because that only happen once in a blue moon. Even just for a moment i'm still thankful that I get to experience it again.
But if possible, I really want to permanently have my sense of taste and smell again. That's a wishful thinking of mine. If only. I'm used to it now. I've been living my life for a years now without it. And even without those, I still love to eat and where can I say that a good is delicious? I base it on the texture of the foods and that's it. I'm good with it.
And this is my story, thank you for reading until the end. See you on my Next Blog