It's been a while
In between the having a baby, moving within the few months after and our friend's passing while moving in, it was a lot as is, even without the health issues that followed. I really needed a break from online stuff to be in the present and getting through one day at a time.
I've had quite some health issues that took over months and months of my time and not to forget, the time of my love and support, because he was overloaded with extra burdens for so long as well. I could not do night shifts with the baby for months in a row, meaning he had to do them and on top of that get up to get the oldest to school, work 10-12 hours a day and often help me with the baby during the day.
On a good day, I could manage well enough during the day so that I could not bother him constantly, but on a bad day, I felt so bad that I wondered if I would end up at the ER again that day, or what the exact moment would be to decide to go again. I often felt I was close to dying and I was so scared all the time. Our friend's passing surely added to the fear, considering that that happened so sudden and it was a huge reality check for all of us.
Maternity leave
All I wanted was to take the remaining weeks of my maternity leave as I was worthless doing anything anway, so even though I was on payroll, I could barely do anything. Then I had to deal with months of failing social security systems so I could not take the remaining leave until I finally decided to let our accountant's department take care of it and pay for it. If only I had known they'd just charge me 35 euros for it, then I would have saved myself months of trying. They had a workaround that I could have never done myself so I'm grateful in the end that they made it work. Just a few more weeks left and then I will have to focus on work stuff again as well.
Doing better
I'm definitely doing better overall in the past month or so, it seems that the iron treatment finally makes a difference because my hair is not falling out anymore as it was (I think I lost at least half of my hair, ugh) and I really forced myself to up my indoor cycling to several times a day and keep it up every day of the week for months. At some point I started noticing that some of my complaints weren't there every day anymore and that was a good motivator to keep going.
My blood pressure is under controll but I have a few more examinations to book which I'm postponing making the appointment as I'm trying to focus on getting more exercize.
Baby growing fast
As with all babies, he's growing really fast and we hit one milestone after the other. He's a real happy little guy, currently discovering his voice and being very loud half of the day, but often sleeping through most of the night, so I'll take the loud daytime over a quiet one during the day, lol.
So that's a quick update from me, I will try to check in again daily, but let's see how I can manage to get back into a regular routine while my maternity leave comes to an end..
Hope everyone is doing great!
Picture is my cute Luna <3