Sometimes people think they know, but they don't- do they? I get it.
They see what is projected, after years of practice. I can relate.
The motivation to not only succeed, but to take an entire group of loves along can be the heaviest, most unreasonable burden. Because there is no pause. There is no true "break", even when they're finally written in. I am right there with you.
Your tired is tired, and you should know better, but you can nap tomorrow. Or maybe next week you can rest. Just finish this, and that - and oh, just that one last thing. I feel you.
So, for those of you who are REALLY struggling with 👉this assignment today👈. Know that I understand, more than you can possibly imagine. Saying "I love you" to the person in the mirror can feel absolutely impossible. But I encourage you to just start saying it. Just start feeling the words forming on your mouth. Watch that reflection speak the words.
But if YOU love "the ones who love YOU".... and if THEY tell you WHY they love you - it is OK to use their responses as a little battle against the lies in your own head, when the voices inside you are a bit too cruel, too dark, too overwhelming.
Years ago,
...one of my dearest friends knew I needed to have love poured over me until it I bathed in it. They wrote me one of the most powerful letters of pure love. And I keep it, to read it when I can't hear any good reason in my own head to believe that I love me.
So! (deep breath) I'm going to use their letter to be my words. It's not stealing, cuz they gave them to me to use however I saw fit. ❤️
IF I am to believe the ones who love me, then:
- I make people feel loved.
- I make people smile, inside and out.
- I can be scared, but will take the leap almost every time.
- I inspire others to take that leap with me.
- I can even get people to pause their day to write crazy lists of love. (that was SLIGHTLY paraphrased, but it actually got me laughing really hard - and that's a good thing right now! lol)
- I have a beautiful heart, no matter what emotion I'm feeling. (oh my gosh, is this the hardest thing ever for you all to write??? I'm seriously just considering deleting entire post right now. 😆)
- I make people feel like they have known me their whole lives. (maybe that is because I try to be open and vulnerable even when i DON'T WANT TO - like this
can't use negativespost!!! lololol) - I make people want to feel more.
- My intent is warm.
- I am kind to others when they are not kind to themselves.
- I invite people to be a part of my joy.
- I am playful and honest.
- I am passionate and fiery, but also quiet and observant.
- I think of others.
- I protect. (myself and others)
Seriously, is this draining anyone else? I'm pretty sure I told 
ok. NOW. I am in a slightly better frame of mind where I can actually answer the questions in
She asked these four questions:
a. Where are you the happiest?
b. What positive traits can you bring to a team?
c. What is something positive about you that some might see as negative?
d. What has been/is your favorite positive surprise about Hive?
I think I already answered b and c, up there in my borrowed "bathing in love" letter. lololol So let me answer a and d.
Where am I happiest?
I am absolutely 100% happiest surrounded by people whom I love/who love me. I FEEL things differently than most. I guess if you were looking for a label, the closest definition would be an "empath", but that doesn't really seem to fit what I am. I don't just share feelings. I actually have a physical response to emotional energy of others around me. I don't understand it, but I often experience it.
Sadness can suck me dry, joy can feel like a drug, evil is like scratching and resistance and repelling force against me. I have a hard time even making eye contact with a selfish, manipulative person. It's very hard for me to be in a room with a lot of people that are closed off - it feels very isolating and terribly, painfully lonely. When people I love are struggling and need to distance themselves from the world, it feels like I've lost a limb, and the phantom pains are unsettling. BUT!!! When I'm surrounded by people whom I love/who love me - I cannot express the overwhelming euphoria. It's like a foretaste of heaven and I am MOST alive right there.
What has been/is your favorite positive surprise about Hive?
This is a longer answer, because I think it actually deserves a longer answer. Skim if you like, but my answer will be full.
I came to our "legacy chain" (as 
I stuck it out for a while, because I don't give up easily. When I finally decided to leave the "legacy chain", I was so unbelievably depleted. By the manipulation, by the carelessness, by the lack of care for an entire group of people who were knitted together through this amazing, life-changing platform. We were seen as a commodity to be handed off, tossed away. And that just hurt deeply.
Hive was promising to pick up where they abandoned, but I was "once bitten, twice shy". I tried, but I had very little hope left. I ended up taking a break from Hive, and finding a new place that offered hope again.
Lo and behold, almost the same exact thing happened there over 18 months. Almost identical. Once again, an entire community of people treated like trash. As if we were property to just be dumped. Thank God I will never understand the mentality of someone who chooses money over people. People over money - always.
I had sent some of those "homeless" people to Hive, because I knew they were amazing writers that could actually earn well here if they would dedicate themselves, open themselves, and commit to growing. They did. I bought a bunch of HIVE -with the intent just to support them with my upvote.
Little did I know, I would wander back to find that during that time where I was away learning new things about me (and the world, and the space between)... HIVE was also having some interesting growing pains. It was maturing, and quite honestly luring me back in with the hint of "something more". I had to admit, it was becoming quite an attractive suitor. lol
Not financially attractive (at the time). When I returned, the value of the token was fairly low. But the money never really attracted me much. I know people find that hard to believe, but - I don't care. lol When I came - the financial value meant NOTHING to me cuz I didn't even believe it was real money! 😆 The value then (and still now) - was what I was seeing around the chain. There was joy again. There was connection renewed. There were all these little communities everywhere that were REAL families. HIVE had begun speaking my love language.
I will never say HIVE is perfect. LOL There are too many problems for perfection. But where can we find perfect in this world? Please. lol I have stopped LOOKING for perfect.
But, I will say THIS. HIVE is doing what those other platforms weren't able to do. It's created space for communities to gather and appeal to a plethora of personalities. It's not trying to be everything for everyone. It's offering "land" for PEOPLE to cultivate, allowing all the "farms" to grow as many different produce for as many different people that care to share a harvest together.
In this time of disconnect, anger, fear, and loneliness, I love that I get to feel quite the opposite. I'm a part of THIS platform where people pause their day to check on you, pour into you, and dump buckets of love on you, as needed. And that's all there is to it, really.
Reflection
Bathe in love
Joy
Sharing the harvest
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