The picture is an approximation of what the house looks like as I return form work and our three teenagers have had free reign in the house.
Ok... MAYBE I am exaggerating... but that is what it FEELS like.
Here lies in ruin the fruits of my labour. My hard work is all for naught and destroyed. So many things get broken at such a steady pace and other resources are needlessly wasted.
Then I stand there in the doorway, a Reaper, there to take these poor souls to the underworld... sometimes to bring them back to life if I can.
Anyway... that is what this image inspires me to think of when I consider this very ordinary and mundane life situation.
The house is a mess... my garage/workshop is a mess... the yard is a mess... my veggie garden is dead... time to start over.
I took some time off from work so I can REST a bit... but I am also fatigued by the mess. It is true that the mental fatigue of loss and chaos will also wear me down so part of the attempt to preserve my own sanity, I will need to spend some time on sorting things out and putting things right.
I am not even sure where I want to start because the chaos is widespread.
Maybe I just start doing stuff and by the time I open my eyes, lots of stuff will be done? Maybe I focus on one area that will be like an island of calm in the storm of chaos and I can work out from there, doing my best to keep that area clean.
I like the latter idea... however... when space is a premium, the house, garage and yard becomes a complicated Sam Lloyd's Puzzle, where I have to move something in order to move something else in order to move yet another thing and so on and so on.
So... while it would be restful to just lie in bed... it will not help my sanity to just ignore the chaos.
I have another project looming... set to start next week. There is a meeting with our company specifically about this project and I am of a mind to go there to attend the meeting despite being on a day's leave so I can rest between these two projects.
My reasoning?
This project is going to have a tremendous effect on my life and the life of my family for the next 2 months.
It would be better for me to get involved in the planning and information-gathering process rather than leaving it to my bosses.
Again... why? Because I do not trust their information-gathering and remembering abilities. One of them disappears when things get difficult and the other one insists on facts being a certain way when everyone knows that it was not like that. The former will lie to save his own skin and the latter turns to anger and flexing his seniority over others, even the client.
It is exhausting and tiring and I do not think I can stand having them deal with my customer for a start-up meeting without me there.
Again... an hour of my day in order to establish peace of mind... I think it a fair price.
So let me get to cleaning and reorganizing... then I can pop in at that meeting and take part in the discussion and TAKE NOTES.
Cheers! Have a great day everyone!
