Facing setbacks can be quite frustrating at the beginning but it’s always how in the end if you don’t give up you’d realize that it was all a path unto something beautiful. Right now, I’m facing some setbacks that I can’t even share but I know at the end of all of this I’d be happy if it’s outcome because this times is only reminding of the fact that nothing good comes easy.
Right now I’m trying to practice self love and be more kinder to myself and always focus on the positive energy around me because it keeps feeling like there is nothing good happening to me but that is totally not true because everything happening is good but it just takes me so much time to accept it. I’m not sure how most of us overcome these times but for me, I do quite a few things to help me cope through these setbacks.
Thinking straight just keeps getting harder for me by the day because it feels like I’m always doing the wrong thing at the wrong time or doing the right thing at the wrong time and it is making me feel less of myself. I’m so happy to be able to pour out a little of what I’m feeling at the moment because I’ve been struggling to share it with anyone but it just keeps hunting me by the day and I think it’s best I write about it since that feels easier.
I can be very optimistic with my words but deep down something keeps telling me that I’m pessimistic still and it’s just hard to believe in myself. Luckily for me, I have some amazing people in my live that believe so much in me and even though they don’t know, they save me a lot from going blackout. Sometimes I just feel like ghosting out but then I realize that if I do that it means I’m quitting and that is not something I enjoy doing so I just try pushing harder.
Thank God for some beautiful things he has given to me, it becomes easier to push even when I feel numb. I’ve found myself getting closer to God because of these setbacks I’m facing and I think that is one major reason why I have to go through what I’m going through now. And God keeps coming through for me and I just feel so loved knowing that I’m not alone after all.
Lately I’ve been listening to music a lot and it has also been helpful. Even while making this post I’m listening to a song on repeat which is making me feel emotional but I can’t change it because it just feels right to keep listening to it. I try to engage in other activities like studying, watching a movie, resting and going out to help keep my mind occupied and free from thoughts that make me think too much. I’m not fine but I’m going to be and I will be fine, at least I believe that, it’s just going to be for a little while.
It’s quite boring reading this I know but I just needed to write it so I’d feel a little better. I’m not exactly sure what the problem is but I feel something big is coming and I’m just passing through a tunnel now so it’s a dark and I don’t really know what is coming but I know I will soon be out of the tunnel, hehe. I don’t know if you are also experiencing anything related, if you are know that this too will pass 🤗.