First Blog in 3 Years: The Bits and Pieces of How My Life Went

Hello, Hivers! How's it been? That was one hell of a three-year break for me! God! I forgot about Hive for long. Three years of not writing my soul out —as if I ever did— on a blog. I noticed that communities kept on while I was away busying myself with adulting. I'm also seeing familiar users that are still active and also new users that's been joining recently. It's great to see a community still so engaging, something alive to get back to. I think I'll slowly be returning back to sharing my thoughts here, I hope. Create content that I can later look back to like a journal, a diary, or whatever. A keep-safe. Hopefully I'm still welcome here.

Truth is, I have a lot going on in my mind right now. I have no one to talk to, and I need to get some thoughts out of my head or else I'll explode. I hope writing them can help. This will be a very personal blog so I'm apologizing in advance. I'm not a good writer, but I'll try my best to express everything. Declutter all the stories in my head that I want to share, and some of my thought-processes throughout this blog.

If you want to read through a boring odyssey, and not-so-great three-year life journey, please stick around. And welcome to the bits and pieces of my life!

Well, the last time I wrote a blog, I was on my second year in college, I was taking up Graphic Design. Around that time, pandemic happened. Time went by fast, I didn't realize I'm already at third year. Went very busy. Finished the semesters, then I wast at fourth year. The final year was all about on-the-job training and we were training in animation. It was fun. I enjoyed drawing illustrations, but the actual animation— not so much.

I got hired weeks before graduation day. It was a shocking moment for me because I got interviewed in the morning and was instructed to start my shift the evening of that same day. I can't believe I will be working already and added that it'll be night shifts so it made me more anxious if I can do it.

Graduation day! My shift ended at 9am that day and the ceremony was scheduled at 1pm so it was no sleep day for me. Took a mirror selfie with my bestie.

After the graduation rights and a quick celebration at home, I headed right to the office to work. I did not sleep for almost 48 hours but it's okay since it was an important event.

My task back in the office is to create entire magazine layouts for all the book fair events that our company will be exhibiting to. I also make layouts of bookmarks, posters, flyers, etc.

I made new friends at the office and had the chance to visit new places since the company is generous enough to do monthly outings. Though some months they skipped, but most months they have something going.

The company where I'm working at is a publishing firm. So I'm exposed to a lot of books and quite a few book lovers. I had this co-worker where I use to borrow books to read. One of the books I read was A Little Life by Hanya Yanagihara which became one of my favorite. I like heart-wrenching novels like this where you can cry your soul out. Anyone who've read this book here? Maybe I'll make a separate blog about the other ones I've also read.

I don't know if I'm always busy with work that I stopped drawing or I'm just lazy at it. Though sometimes I fill papers with random pen sketches during breaks or if I'm bored at work. That's the only art pieces conjured for the past years.

About one and a half years of me doing nothing but work, a drama at home broke out and I had to finally decide for myself.

After years, and years of wanting to, I finally decided it's time for me to move-out.

There's no point in staying at a place where you no longer feel like you belong. Even though it hurts to leave the people you love, it hurts more to pretend like everything is fine when it's not. Life is so unpredictable. Things happen and you have to make big decisions. I just hope the decisions I made is for my own good. When I try to look back and reflect at everything, I take comfort in the fact that I chose to finally be happy in my solitude.

First night at the apartment I rented. I only have so little belongings with me. Slept at a cold hard floor at the mean time.

I was on a tight budget so I had to buy everything cheap. Prioritize only the things I need. Slowly filling up the room and organizing stuff. Here, I realized how hard it is to be on your own, and that comfort really comes with a price.

Right now, I'm just hoping that I can fend off for myself and survive. The important thing is I'm finally at a place where I'm not being judged and I can become my truest self. No hiding. No pretending. I'm ready for my new life.

That was some of the ups and downs I've been through. Well, I can say that I'm proud of myself for getting though all that. I just hope that I can stand still for what's to come now that I've chosen my path. But I believe that I can do it. I'll try to make it. Whatever it takes. For me.

I really want to engage-back in this community, and connect with everyone. I'm all about art, movies, crypto, and bit on books. I've already seen a lot of users here with great content that I've slowly been following. Hopefully I'll meet new people in here with the same interests as me, that I can relate to, and maybe become friends along the way.

Anyway, that's it for now! And here's to the new chapter of my blogging journey! Hope it'll be filled with meaningful interactions and exciting new content.

Stay tuned for what's to come!

Byeee 👋