Where do I start?
It was easy for me to take a piece of A4 paper and a pen, but it's quite difficult for me to write when nothing is on my head. I guess a cup of white coffee might help.
I've been wanting to write these for a few days, but I'm busy on unpacking and exploring. But the urge for me to write on this blog had disturbed my bedtimes.
So, here it goes. I didn't know writing can be so addictive, and I get used to letting my brain running with ideas. It's like my brain were exercising with stories to write.
There are many ways for me to start and as much as you to lose interest in reading my post.
As a single parents, I am resourceful enough to make ends meet. Just to find ways to get by. I always hope to make things right on everything I do, as long as it falls into a proper place.
Being a performer or a stage singer, I've had to meet people from all walks of life. Since my curiosity has led me to ask them on how and what they do to achieve their daily lives, I will engage them in interesting conversations.
As bad as Covid-19 has affected the world economics, it's getting worst now as the inflation and the increasing price market. Everybody is doing whatever it takes to help their families and just to survive the day.
We can also see some businessman or a professional preserver in climbing their way to the top. Most of them will work in long hours, and they tend to forget about time to spend by commuting with their families and friends.
If you are still reading this post, my guess is that you must be a hardworking person. Please tell me that I am right? But if it's not, there's nothing to lose by keep reading, or maybe you can scroll to the next post.
I know we often heard a saying that "if you work hard, you will have a prosperous life”. Everybody wants a good life, but I always wonder why there are so many hardworking people who are struggling between “Time and Money”. The harder they pushed their self to achieve their goal, the more frustrated they become.
My brains work differently. My understanding about hardworking are quite the opposites of the saying. People are more emphasis on hard work rather than the results.
My mind will be thinking more about doing what best for the long term. Yes, maybe you may want to work for a short-term, but the choices you need to make today are what going to shape you in the future.
We are given a chance to act and make a wise life choices, so we can't live life passively. You can be the richest person, but without time and meaningful life, you are good as Broke!
I always question myself. Why should I travel far just to make a living, while it is hard for me to be with my families? Why should I agree and work with a high salary, but I am not happy for being away from my kids?
I have worked almost two decade of my life, and the only regret I had was being separated from my kids and my families. I had expensed my time with travelling and working rather than be with them.
Furthermore, I know a certain people who think I'll be enjoying my time while I'm away. They are not the one who been working their ass-off to feed my kids. But I know it is normal for people to judge you without being in your place.
I have been married and divorced more than once. I never depends on my ex's child support money because I know I can still work for them. Even asking them will make me feel disappointed for the answer, as they are not a responsible father.
I guess this is my Karma. I always end up with an irresponsible partner that will choose to be with me during the happiest time but not during the hardest. The worst I've experienced was being called a thief for stealing his money.
But I guess he will only remember the money and time he invested on me, but he won't remember the time and money I've spent on him. I guess he forgot that when we first met, I was a single parent that work for my kids and have my money. He might even eat my earning as a single mother.
It's sound hilarious to me when I heard about it. Because this is my first time encounter such person that spreading lies about me. I wonder why my other exes didn't say anything about me stealing their money. I guess if they know I've been accused as such, they can be my witnesses about me as a person, a sister, a wife, and a mother.
With the experienced that I went through during my hardest time, I've learned that I had met a wrong person at a wrong time. Covid-19 has teaches me that in the end, I'll be better off alone.
I can support myself and my kids without depending on their father. I was to traumatize from being accused of lying and stealing people's money. Luckily, now everything seems to be back as before.
I can work and have my earning. Started back on my own two feet. It becomes so easy and not depressing at all because I always have a strong supporter. My families and friends.
I know I can't handle another headache. It had abused my emotional and I don't need it anymore.
The bottom line is, I will not want a monotonous life. As I'm getting older by year, I would rather not look back and see myself making the same mistakes.
I'm living my life today, right now, currently as my last day of my life. I will put myself first and have such intriguing and exciting life ahead.
Not only that, but I am my own author of my book and I can make a brilliant story to prepare as my future life story. Furthermore, I've learned how to use my Time and Money on things that really matter.
I'm making every second in my life count!
(P/S: I Owned All The Pictures)
