I don't know the reasons why I always think about every part I had, like doing an activity, or when everyone gives me something intake with my necessary needs, I feel guilty, yet for no right reason. The brain murmured many things, from 'do everyone now have the same facility as I had?' until 'do everyone have a poorer condition than me?' still stitching. Yet, my brain also competes with the understanding of 'what if' that belongs to my acquired; that everything will be alright if I have fun with my life.
Then, do we have to be a guilty pleasure person for aiming for a great, worthy life? Every person needs to live a worthy life without exception to another statement, because I know if there is a guilty pleasure behind every enjoyment in this life, it means there are other people who disagree with the life that we aimed for.
From what I felt about guilty pleasure in my consideration of relying my life on anything, then we should not be too guilty pleasure to chasing any of worth life fateness, right? Yes, we can make sense to any of the people beside us who they had enough enjoyed many life aspects onto; taking an education, spending its lifestyle, and taking a job in a higher company. Somehow, the answer to how many people is could not reach the guilty pleasure in achieving or accepting their portion of life's worthwhile is persisting in how they have to seek, as it's just the beginning of their life that happened accordingly by those who nurture their lives.
So, when it all happened to them, more of go when it's life's supposed not going successfully like what they nurture, somehow it's impacted on the start of the guilty pleasure not for them, but on many people around them. I don't make too much sense with this case, because I don't want to keep climbing these steps to know how many people do the same this. Like, whenever you feel a guilty pleasure while there are others too intakes with the case I have written about before. I think that it really is annoying to have a guilty pleasure when we know it's all caused by others, independent of those not achieved from their nurture.
So, I keep on this affirmation for me to make a deal and be brave or focused on what I have to aim for. Why I had taken that affirmation is because I feel less about my life's achievements, it all happened to me, when I keep secure all of my principles to become not a strange but onto the ones who stand still with my targets, suddenly it all scraped into the burst. All of my successful factors have made me become what I aimed for; somehow, it's really hard to resist.
There is also a time when I had gotten adequate in my timing more often in enjoying my life, which made to disappointed with myself because that happened when I was in a spinning situation of scrappy-minded. However, I realized that I really enjoyed spending time doing activities rally on having fun; until I realized I was just wasting my time doing many spammy activities. Watched Korean in Telegram and ordered food, or just singing on karaoke apps.
All that junk lifestyle stuck in my mind by the times of these blog topic that I writting now, "how we spend many of lifestyle without too guilty pleasure". Because of I do hate with my everyday routine, in the same way of what my family and relation might consider also to let my life going like this. Then, it is made me think offshored about how our life supposed too be targetted into the succesful. However I am to fainthearted or destardly to planned about my lifes in the future without what my family have served of many kind requirements although its just a basics.
Then, when I have got to lookout into what my happily aimed for in my whole life, I have looked at many people who deserve life more than what I perceive. It has been something that purposely made over my life decision to be rid of accidentally doing many of the junk life too and bloody stream without knowing how the bad impact on my future.
That all of my fault that I've been feeling for since this years, has also been strengthened by the condition in my life's profession. Yet the one kind done for is, I am not too dissapointing whenever I am not steady doing my work desk. However I was knowing how the calmness factor is been close to the lid, and makes me want to achieve more of that intuitiveness -- which is if I think it far away, I had loose many of my best opportunities.
So, when I'll go to perceive my calmness to not being guilty pleasure, somewhat that monsters is pinned slowly but sure that makes me greedy in my own rights and necessities. The one facts that make me none of the grips when I should to believe that I am winning this problems, is lookout in how I don't really care with my professional life. However the law of living with togetherness is really barks aloud this recent times I opened this drafts of my blog manuscript.
It's sounds like "please, be rational on how your life's portion being fulfilled.". Then, whenever I have got too happy for no what kind of exact reason or when my necessities are being consist not by my efforts, that sudden jungle of life law was too barking aloud and made my heartfined or my heart feels driven by the guilty sure. However, that pity facts is, I can not knowing whose ever people around me that really intuitive for my fortune.
I am felt 50:50 to have this problem across all of my entire lifes. That guilty somehow made me know how to controlled of my inner peaces (I guess every of people who get a boundaries, seldom to have great inner peace), but I keep insane that its was driven by the wrong places, occassion, and peoples (I am not wanting to describe its intentionally), because I have my own wounds very deep inside on how my life is such a shame and why the reality matters until these time, we are also get hurt by co-existness together.
Which One Is Better? Being Impolite for Keeping My Condition or Getting a Plan B to Overcome It?
Somehow, I know that what I feel is just for me; nobody can know exactly how I feel. But that case makes me wonder how badly people feel about it, even more. I believe that whenever you receive someone's trust to know their entire life story or be their friend over a life story, it means a lot.
You can go for their business throughout the cooperation or work together as a team. So, it's somewhat of a problem for me to have less connection with many people at one step, given the importance of the whole team. All of them were too in denial to appraise me as one of them. That's why I talk about how nobody wants in my business.
Then, I have a question about how I could stand still in my condition now. Should I go with the impoliteness to keep my condition now (as a person who gets my basic requirement without any partial status to achieve it) or should I go to make a plan B to overcome it?
Because I think twice about how many people have enough fun whenever they ask me in my entire lifestyle? It does not mean that I have a lot of acquaintances in my whole life who are equal to my wealth; I am just a person who waits for a better job opportunity to have my own proper life. Then a lot of them were too envious of how they look at someone, a portion is right for others. Meanwhile, to compete with someone's fatness really ruins their lives. You may now have a good condition, but somehow rather different from them, or vice versa. So, this factor makes me doubt pursuing the second question.
Somehow, it might be right that many people now live in not their comfort zone. Just because life is not easy to configure as a simple one to be survived for, a lot of people can not have a proper life, or it might be a saved one because they have made many efforts behind it. So, there is nothing right with not choosing the second question.
If it were so easy to make my parents trust and get my freedom, I could not think about choosing between two kinds of questions. However, they have not given me a choice for my freedom lives. So, how about my Plan B for this problem if there were no open real-world for me?
Hi guys, I am sorry for serving you my blog full of impolite topics. I know that my life was ruined now, and there's nothing better than writing this and letting my stress be healed. Thanks to all of you who gladly want to read this, and I am sorry for many parts and people whom I mention in all of my blog posts. Hopefully you were enjoyed.