Double Celebrations
Well, technically my Hive Birthday is six more days away from commemorating my sixth year, or 80th moon, on Hive.
I cropped my screenshot there above from my profile on HiveBlocks.
I also edited my sonogram a little bit below.
And technically i, myself, am not pregnant... But we are having a boy. It's been a mad-dash the last few months. We are now just a few weeks away from birth. The due date is October 5th which is cool since my dad's birthday was on the 2nd. I wish he was here for all the excitement.
To be honest, i am super excited yet completely terrified to be having a baby. I always wanted a daughter but also needed a son to carry on my last name of Castleberry. So, it's cool to be having that first born son but i am a bit sad it's not the daughter i always wanted.
'You shouldn't look a gift-horse in the mouth' is a saying where i come from back in Texas. It's kind of a figurative way to say not to take things for granted and that beggars can't be choosers. I am honestly happy to just be having any offspring no matter what it ends up being. We do know that it's a boy because of his man-parts being clearly visible in some of the sonograms we had.
This is my first time posting into the Reflections Community... but i'm sure not my last. I don't post often personally. I hope to change that and will be working towards improving my own personal use of Hive rather than all the curation and community duties i perform. Finding balance in life is always tough when you are in a constant state of change!
Anyway, i am glad to be able to reflect and think about the past and the future. I try to be in the moment as much as possible but there are so many conflicting times and adaptations it makes that almost impossible currently.
I have had many months to try and come to terms with this life-changing event. It has made me reflect on my own childhood and upbringing very much. I have triggered memories from my infancy and youth that probably would have resided forevermore in my sub and unconscious mind. However, many images, sounds, textures and other sensations and memories have come to mind because of my consideration to what my son will experience and how to accommodate him as best i can along the way!
I made some artwork and went through a phase of pregnant females as a theme in my art two or three years ago. I wonder now if it was just foreshadowing the future. Hopefully, i'm not too old to be doing this. Hahaha I guess time will tell.
This is me and my partners' 7th year together. To be having a child on that seventh year feels kind of special.
So, i guess this post is a double celebration of sorts.
First, i want to say thank you to Hive and the community for all the support for so many years. I have made a lot of friends here and interacted meaningfully with many people from all over the world in a monetized way that i never thought possible. The whole Hive network and all of the old school users that have made it all worthwhile are an amazing blessing in my life in so many ways.
It's not about the monetized interactions so much as the meaningful ways that everything has come together in a monetized way. I will share some of this content on Facebook for no money and it will take up more of my time and social engagement than it's worth for the effort put forth. But this is an announcement i cant miss sharing everywhere.. monetized or not.
I have had to split my time more than usual the last few months to focus on real-life stuff. It's been a struggle to juggle all the curation and community managements while also staying social on Hive as well as in the background, and having a life in the real world too.
Once that baby comes, there might be some radio silence on my end for longer than i care to get behind on my duties! That's the kind of getting behind that there's no catching up to. However, Life goes on and Hive will go on. There will be a never ending feed of seven day payout posts all over the blockchain!
I am fortunate that everyone (or almost everyone) on Hive has been and will most likely always be very understanding. I have seen users come and go. Mostly go. But there are those that come back and have their reasons for being gone. Life happens while we are all busy making other plans! I know now that i have no plans other than to just be the best dad i can be. I had a good example myself, but unfortunately, he isn't here to help me for the hard part of life.
I wanted to thank everyone for checking out my post and taking any time at all to read this. I didn't really plan out my post too well but thought this expression should suffice... for now. I will have to reflect a bit more to get to the next step of my 'processing this situation'.... hahaha
Just kidding... hahaha
Psalm 127:3
Lo, children are an heritage of the Lord: and the fruit of the womb is his reward.
Psalm 139:13 For thou hast possessed my reins:
thou hast covered me in my mother’s womb.
14 I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made:
marvelous are thy works;
and that my soul knoweth right well.
15 My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret,
and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.
16 Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect;
and in thy book all my members were written,
which in continuance were fashioned,
when as yet there was none of them.
It takes a village, is what i hear...
don't think i won't tap this village for it's infinite wealth of knowledge, wisdom, and experience! Thanks again for stopping by. More to come for sure!

