Seems chaos has been the theme of things lately in life. That is all on me though and I own that. I actuaklly like it somewhat compared to the boredom I was experiencing just a few months ago sitting around reading, watching documentaries and spedning too much time in discords and on Hive.
I honestly forgot what it was like to live in a little chaos. It keeps you on your toes, the heart rate up, and the mind a little sharper. I have been living in that chaos lately, and honestly, I am starting to think it is just how things work now. Yeah, I like it.
I am launching a coaching business. Not because the timing is perfect, when is timing ever perfect? The timing is probably terrible with me still dealing with health challenges. But waiting for fucking stars to align just don't cut it anymore and hnestly can't afford too. I can't afford to physically or mentally. So now it is all about building relationships, one conversation at a time, one connection at a time, figuring out what works and what absolutely does not.
Simultaneously, I am buried in academic work. Although there are still lingering cognitive challenges, the University is working with me and made some time accomodations to complete exams and assignments now. However, the type of coursework does not care about your other obligations. It shows up on the syllabus, and you either do the assigned work or you do not. So no doubt that I will be drinking lots of coffee and questioning my life choices at 2 AM while staring at a screen full of organizational theory.
Then there is the certification prep. Because apparently I thought adding structured study sessions to an already packed schedule was a good idea. Past me made that decision. Present me has opinions about it.
And somewhere in all of this, there are health challenges still. The kind of stuff that does not show up on your calendar except for docts appointments, but demands attention anyway. The kind that forces you to slow down when slowing down feels impossible and forces you to do so at what seems like the shittiest of times.
Here is the thing, I brought the chaos on myself, and I prefer it. I prepfer it to sitting and wasting away and letting my diseases determine my fate. I have some control and I took it back, at least what I can. Fuck that shit.
Started Tai Chi, Meditation, walking, looking at starting some chair yogs (maybe) and I am gonna keep moving. Some days that looks like productivity. Other days it looks like survival. Both count.
The business is growing. The coursework is progressing. The studying continues. The health stuff gets managed, sometimes it manages me, its a fight. None of it is pretty. All of it is happening.
That is the update. No stupid ass inspirational quotes. No five step frameworks. Just a guy that has gotten off his sorry ass, in the middle of too many things, refusing to quit any of them and refusing to quit on life.
Thanks for reading,
Joe
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