Hello, my beloved readers! It's me again, emminemsss, wishing you a joyful day.
I got bored, feeling lazy and thinking random things. I haven't been able to find a job yet, and it's alright — I wasn't ready to end my vacation. I wasn't leaving home also to roam or go shopping somewhere. My routine every day rotates around the house: doing chores, cooking, eating, playing with my brothers, and looking for the animals we have been caring for.
This Bambi, the youngest and the cutest cat.
This is Calvin, the hardworking and picky eater, carabao.
These lovely dogs are, Mating and Amor. Amor is the neighbors dog but he often roam around the house when there's food served.
This is Beeboy, the naughty pig.
This is Jorge, the pretty chicken.
These animals are one of my happiness, they make my mind become peaceful just by looking at them.
Transition real quick 😂
While staying at home, many things happened, negativity is inevitable and it slowly eats my system. I once thought that after graduating I'll become useful to my family, but to be honest, I'm doubtful. Right now, I am looking forward on applying for a perfect job that is long term, but is it possible? You think there's a perfect job that is good enough to make me stay and enjoy working? I don't think so. I'm just hoping and praying that one day things will be aligned to what I've been praying for.
I have these thoughts. Like, I think I am a bad person to be like this, to think like this. Don't get me wrong, dear reader. I wanted to ask for advice from anybody. I'll hear you out even if it is hurtful. So, you know I've kept these things for quite a while now. This is about my sister. My sister settled down, she has two sons, her partner has a job, and she is a small town lottery agent. My father is a farmer, my mother is a housewife. But every now and then they'll ask for rice or to borrow money from our parents. Sadly, they will not really pay for what they borrowed. Or sometimes they will, but mostly they forget about it. The same thing happens every time, but they're not jobless. We have three other siblings, one in college, one in senior high school, and one in elementary. I remembered when I was still in school and going home became an issue to her. She never tells me about how she thinks about it, but she's always murmuring and telling our parents badly. I was feeling bad, but I never talked back because I know the way she thinks. Whenever she's asking for something, I feel bad for my parents. When thinking and comparing our situation, is there a difference? I don't think so. What is the best thing to do? Can you help me come up with an idea on how I can resolve this issue in my family? I wanted to help my sister to be independent, not to rely on my parents.
For now, I will be staying home. I'll write blogs while waiting for the result of the exam I took, also to save money and use it to apply for a job in the city. I am looking for a job online as well.
I love my family. I wanted to help them grow and thrive for success. Besides they are the reason why I still stand strong and endured everything.
Thanks for stopping by, dear readers. Please bear with my thoughts.Hemweeeeh. Love lots!