Hello, my beloved hivers! How are you? I hope you feel awesome always!
For today's blog, I want to share what's on my mind. I wanted to express this through writing because I felt so drained thinking about it. I want to dedicate this blog to my fellow students who are fighting for their dreams.
I really don't know how to begin this. These past few days, I have felt so down. I thought I was good. Physically, yes, I am totally fine. But I realized that, emotionally, I wasn't. I don't know what to do first. I can't compose myself. I can't stay in one place. I can't sleep immediately at night. In short, I am restless.
As I sat outside the boarding house alone, I was thinking that many things had happened lately, especially in school. Payment here, payment there. And I was ashamed to ask for money from my parents; if possible, I don't want to add burdens to them.
Other people might say that students (especially college students) are lucky that they're just studying, going to school every day, doing school tasks, and waiting for an allowance. In some instances, did you ask them what they felt? How are they able to overcome those breakdowns every night, crying and begging for peace of mind? Did you think of how they're able to manage their time and budget their money just to make it until Sunday? So please stop judging us, because it wasn't as easy as you thought.
I was just so happy and grateful that my parents are very supportive. Even though they're struggling, they find a way to provide for my needs every time I ask for their help.
For all the parents out there who have children who are studying, please, I asked you to support them and ask them always how they're doing in school, if they're struggling or something. Supporting them not only financially but also morally can be a big contribution to their development.
When a student is stressed in school, there's a possibility that this will lead to more serious issues, like anxiety and depression. I believe that those happy-go-lucky people are the saddest. It's hard when you're sad, but you can't show your real emotions because you're afraid that you'll pass the burden on to other people. Which causes you to keep your secrets within yourself. It hurts. It's like crumbling your heart into pieces. Thankfully, I have friends to lean on every time I struggle. But I can feel that they're more problematic. I always felt guilty about sharing my burdens with them, yet they're struggling with their own lives.
I salute those people who fight their battle in the dark. They're the bravest warriors in their own battles.
I have had lots of realizations in life. Yet I can't help myself from overthinking. It was one of the hardest things I've encountered in this world. It's a matter of self-trust and believing in God's helping hand. Let's pray for unending patience and determination to still fight and continue pursuing our dreams. As a college student, I want to encourage every individual living in this world (especially those who are studying) to never give up because everything will be worth it in the end.
Life gave us a lot of uncertainties, but at the end of the day, we're able to overcome them.
Thank you for reading my blog, everyone. My heart is in chaos right now. Please comment the things that're bothering you. Thank you, and I love you all.
Images are all mine.
Taken in random places and at different times.