Like it or leave it, you are but a product of what you consistently or constantly feed your mind. Before any damage is done to the physical being or body, it all starts from the mind. What you regularly feed it, is what the entire being would manifest.
So lately I've not really been feeling the bubbles in my life, I just live everyday as it comes, no major plans or whatsoever. I wake up each moment, laying in my bed and thinking about what next thing to do, it's been this way for a couple of days now and I am really exhausted, you know how one could be exhausted without even doing a thing.
This phase of life I'm currently experiencing without any prior plans or major plan of what to do or what not to do is pretty exhausting and I hate to feel the way I feel. The things I would love to do or places I would love to be, lack of resources is restraining me in a number of ways and this too can be very disheartening.
And so because of that, my mind has constantly fed me shits, stuff I shouldn't even be thinking about on a good day, looking for issues where there are none, having unnecessary mood swings and getting bittered about the slightest thing that comes to my screen__why am I not able to do this, why can't I do that, why is this happening, or why is that happening, did something go wrong anywhere? Could this be the reason for this action or reaction? My mind just keeps going around in circles, back and forth. I do everything in my power to distract the mind and divert its thoughts to something good, something positive but all to no avail, it keeps tracing it way back to the shitty things it wants me to dwell on.
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I question myself, my decision, my reaction, my actions towards things, situations, people etc. it's exhausting, because at this point I do not know if I am living right or I am just living another life which isn't really mine based on my thoughts faculty. This is affecting not just my life but drifting towards the people close to me as well because it makes me think beyond just myself but others too. I want to come out of it, I'm really trying my best to get out of that zone, it's deadly, it's not a safe place to be, I've tasted it and I don't want to keep dwelling in that deadly zone, but the question is how do I come off it? Any suggestions? Cause I've really done my part trying to distract myself from all those shitty thoughts. What other things do I need to do?_ someone help me!.