When I look at how far I have come, I just feel grateful to God for all the people he used to help me get this far and even those that tried to stop me at different times too. I have made some drastic decisions and changes in my life these past years, and right now, they don’t really feel like the best decisions, but I’m glad I did them. The mistakes I have made and the opportunities I have missed always tend to cloud my mind, causing me to forget the wonderful and beautiful things that have happened to me.
My life started taking a different path when I decided to let God take the wheel. You know, knowing how to do something and being one of the best at it always tends to make us forget that we are just vessels and the one that really deserves the credit is the one that has made us that way. God has been the one behind all my victories, and that’s basically because I have let him take full control of me. Sometimes I try to do the opposite by thinking his leadership is slow or not as I want it, but that has always ended up worse than I expected.
There are more changes that I need to make in my life, and right now, I keep holding myself back because of fear of the unknown. I worry about what might happen if I am to leave my comfort zone and do things differently, again. Taking the first step always seems hard, but it often determines whether or not we will get to the end or not. Usually, all we need to get to where we need to be is taking that first step. One way I always push myself to take that first step is to remind myself that it is better to fail trying than failing to try because that’s one of my major fears—failure.
Lately, I have also come to notice that my confidence level is not as bad as it was. These days, I’m learning to speak up even when I still feel that fear. My courage is growing, and that is helping me to be more audacious and confident. Interestingly, most people think that I have always been this way, but deep down, I know something in me is changing, and I’m totally loving it. I’m even more certain that there are more where these things came from, and I can’t wait to see myself adding more value to myself as the days go by.
I have failed so much in different ways, and I thought they made me less of myself, and that was one of the reasons I kept losing confidence in myself, but now, I’m beginning to see how much those failures have been building me to become a better version of who I really should be. I have let my failures define me for way too long, but not anymore. I’m going to embrace my failures and focus more on turning them into my grand success stories.
I see who I am now. I knew who I was, and I’m anticipating who I’ll become. One thing is certain: the difference will be clear. I’ll make those mistakes even though at the time of making them it felt like the correct thing to do, but I’ll make sure to learn how to do it better and do it right. It’s already a new day, and that means I have new challenges to resolve and new heights to get through!
Thank you for reading through. 💜